[Slow Fade]

Thank you Curiosity, Marchingforward and Nas.

I'm kind of annoyed that they don't want me driving. I think I would be fine and they are just being over cautious. (I know, famous last words!  )

I keep thinking about my Mom and her dementia.....the words "neurologist" sent a shiver of fear down my spine. Plus its the same neurologist that my Mom saw. 

[beyondblessed]

We do all of those things in time, and some like myself, move on, looking back only to see how far we've come.

[FaithWalker]

So sorry to hear about the sleep issues SF.  I hope they get it figured out quickly so you can get your driving freedom back!

[Slow Fade]

Thank you Beyond Blessed and FaithWalker.

I hope they can figure out something as well. I just attributed my brain fog to menopause and stress but perhaps there is an underlying issue? What came first, the chicken or the egg in this case? Lol! 

We had a great Easter. My favorite holiday. I wish my Mom was closer so I could visit more often.......

[Slow Fade]

Hello friends! Its been a minute or two since I posted.

Wednesday I go to pick out a cpap machine. Oh joy. O well, hopefully it will make a world of difference. 

We just got back from a vacation to Nebraska (I know, who goes on vacation to Omaha?  ) to have S18 meet his online girlfriend in person for the first time. OMG they are such a cute couple. Watching them was so sweet. Young love. This is S18's first experience with this kind of thing. She will be 18 in September so she has another year of school left. We will see what happens when that time comes. We met her parents and had dinner with them and went to the zoo. It was a great time. Loooong, loooong drive and the humidity was shocking at first, but the great plains were awesome and watching the clouds and storms pop up was amazing!

H and I even slept in the same bed. We don't usually due to snoring issues and the need to starfish when we sleep! It was a very nice time together. Easy conversations, laughter, a sense of safety and comfort. Shared a nice dinner together to celebrate our birthdays...…I'm liking this time in our life right now. 

Interesting thing he said......as we were talking about S18 we speculated that he could be married, have a good career track and be settled in the next few years.....H said "Yeah or he could be a total train wreck by the time he's in his 40's."

Interesting note from a MLCr. Clarity? Remorse? Insite? Perhaps.........hopefully S18 won't be a victim of the sins of the father....

[UrsaMajor]

Nice story!

A bit of clarity and reflection perhaps... Time will tell

[Slow Fade]

Thank you Ursa.....

The rift between S18 and H has been going on for 11 years.....Its just now starting to mend. So sad that H missed out on so much in that young man's life.  There is hope going forward however.    They can relate to each other on an adult level. S18 is starting to realize that he has a voice and power to use it...….

[Nas]

Interesting update, SF.  Glad to hear from you and I hope you're feeling well!

[Father5]

HI SF,

I deal with the same symptoms. My Dr is at a loss on the fatigue. I dont breathe out of nose all that well. Maybe a C pap will help me sleep.

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Thank you Father5 and Nas. The cpap has been interesting and I find myself not wanting to sleep without it and looking forward to using it at night. Weird. I have learned to breathe through my nose and the rhythm of the machine encourages me to breathe deeply and regularly. I fall asleep in minutes!

Everything else marches on as usual. A little concerned about H's health however. He drinks more, he doesn't watch what he eats and he has put on a little bit of weight. (me too, but I'm working on changes  )  I wish he would go in for a checkup but he tends to downplay the issues. In some ways he's still in denial about his age.    Ahhh MLC, the gift that keeps on giving.    He is a total anti-vaccer as well.......very worrisome.

I miss my chocolate lab something fierce. I see a treat or something that I think he would like and then my heart is bruised all over again. Living in the house without a big dog is something I've never experienced in my life. Horses are gone, 2 dogs are gone, 2 cats are gone.........trying to unencumber my life so I can travel more easily as I look down the barrel of retirement. H would like to buy a boat big enough to live on. We shall see. For now I have taken up canning food. I've never done it before but it is very satisfying to see jars of things I've done in the pantry. Next year will see the start of a pretty substantial garden I hope.

Wholesome food, fresh air and exercise? What will my poor body think!!!!