After reading through my journals from before, he started this in 2011. My first bd was June 4, 2011. He moved out with a friend and there was an EA with OW. He was back and forth in the home for the next couple years and I did not realize this was MLC. The next bd came in early 2014 when he filed for divorce without giving me a heads up. There was a new OW, but this one became physical. We actually reconciled in September 2014 and took it slow. I think he finally returned home by Christmas.
We were stronger than we had been and I was happy. He refused to talk about the OW and I didn't push because I didn't want to hurt anymore. I think this has remained unresolved for us because he never admitted to an affair until 2020. I thought we were happy and moving right along with plans for the future. He then took a job in 2021 which resulted in traveling almost 6 months non stop from Kentucky to Oregon. So the time change threw a kink in communication and it began to become limited contact. I would complain that we weren't doing anything together and missed him a lot. This is when I began to notice minor changes (not thinking MLC because I thought we had already gone through it and was just not connecting due to circumstances). We still were not actually connecting because we were doing college visits for my son, so one of us would be gone on the weekends. The company finally collapsed and he took a new job in 2022. Son had picked a college and H was home more.
Then I went into a depression because my first born was going away 9 1/2 hours. The summer was busy moving him and then I went with our daughter to a 2 week mock law trial in California. Luckily, I had pushed for a vacation for just the 2 of us. The day after I returned from CA, we left for New England. He was excited about his new job and showed me his work site. We ate at a couple restaurants he enjoyed- you know sharing his experiences! Then we get back and work starts back for me (I work in the school system).
It's almost like a door closed on us. August quickly became November and he wasn't interested in my work, never asked about my days, only talked about what he was doing and the stress of the New England job. Then they added another location for him to visit. This one was close to home, but he chose to stay during weekends. Let me tell you how fast that red flag shot up!!!! I have no proof and he denies there is OW.
Then one week I called him out and let's just say that was the nail in the coffin! He literally stopped talking to me and when he returned home, bd December 11, 2022. He filed for divorce 12/22/22. Couldn't wait until after the holidays. Ruined my d18 birthday as well as Christmas! I knew exactly what was happening and I began working on myself.
Honestly, I feel like i'm in a good place mentally at this time. I crashed into a deep depression and received medication from my doctor. The meds were worse than the symptoms of depression, so I no longer take them. I have my family and friends that have been trying to do something with me every weekend. Work has been a nice distraction and co-workers have been awesome! I have been exercising (limited because I found out this past Oct. I have a torn meniscus), eating healthier (lost 25 lbs since Oct and in a healthy way!), meditating everyday, reading scripture everyday and focused on being happy for myself and my kids.
My s19 hasn't said much. He found out 2 days before going back to school. D18 hates H so much. They have had a rocky relationship for years but this pushed her over the edge. She doesn't think I should stand for him. She believes I deserve better and H is not the answer. She told me he better come back a totally different person because he doesn't deserve you!
H is living in the house currently. He's been more of a wallower recently. This company went under too. They owe him over $8000 in pay and travel expenses, which are now cutting deeply into our savings. I honestly think it's more the loss of his new identity and friends as well as OW. H doesn't monster like the first time. There is no blame directly at me for him leaving. He said the typical "I don't love you, but you are always going to be a special person since you are the mother of my kids." H admitted that he needed to work on himself and that he has a lot of questions about his childhood (years of repressed memories). He did acknowledge he hasn't been a good husband or father; I don't know if he meant recently or overall. Now don't get me wrong, H did say I did not deserve to have a vacation because I'm lazy and never help out! Oh the thoughts and stories these MLCer's have!!
I've been setting boundaries to help protect my emotions. He is still very self-centered and has pushed away me (obviously), my D18 and his own mother at times. I'm not sure if this is happening because we lost his step dad in Dec 2021(I think may have been a huge trigger for the MLC return), but MIL is very depressed and not her usual self at this time.
My original question then should be can MLC happen multiple times to a person?
*As I've been here writing this, he's been slamming doors and drawers. Guess he's pissed about something. Probably because my d18 and I have been out of the house most of the day
This is his choice!!