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My Story Built To Last
OP: August 03, 2021, 04:33:21 PM
This song from Redlight King is my anthem lately.  Not just mine, but I think all LBS's

Beware, there is one swear word in the song
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MiC1AZBLp1M

Here are the lyrics minus the swear word if you don't want to listen
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I've been to a place so cold, it steals your soul
It takes more than hope, it takes its toll
Where the fine line begins and heroes end
Where the nay sayers pray and the innocent sin
Where night conquers day and fortunes fade
The land sharks stay and hurt won't go away
When trouble sets in and you can't get out
Cause there's so much fear and doubt

I've been beat up and broken down
And I've been there a thousand times
I may have walked through the worst in hell my friend
And we all got our reasons why
I gave my life for the things I had
And it all flies by so fast
I may have walked through the worst in hell my friend
Now I know I was built to last
Built to last

I've been to a place so dark, it breaks your heart
The devil's teeth stay sharp and they leave their mark
And everything you've built, ******' falls apart
If you made it this far
You're right back where you start
And people work hard and just get by
Can't hang your head or hold it too high
No matter what's at stake, you stake your claim
And I won't live my life in vain

I've been beat up and broken down
And I've been there a thousand times
I may have walked through the worst in hell my friend
And we all got our reasons why
I gave my life for the things I had
And it all flies by so fast
I may have walked through the worst in hell my friend
Now I know I was built to last
Built to last, built to last,
I'm built to last, built to last

You keep rollin' on
There's no lookin' back
You keep rollin' on
There's no lookin' back
Built to last
(That's what it is)
Built to last
And you keep rollin' on
There's no lookin' back
You keep rollin' on
There's no lookin' back
I've been beat up and broken down
And I've been there a thousand times
I may have walked through the worst in hell my friend
And we all got our reasons why
I gave my life for the things I had
And it all flies by so fast
I may have walked through the worst in hell my friend
Now I know I was built to last
I was built to last
Built to last, I'm built to last
Built to last
Built to last
Built to last
It all flies away,
It all flies away so fast
It all flies away,
It all flies away so fast

Update coming...

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#1: August 03, 2021, 04:55:01 PM
I had a great trip out to Washington and back, although it was fast.  We got a late start Tuesday, so we only made it to Ogden, UT for the night so Wednesday was lots of driving.  We got to our destination about 8:45pm.  Thursday was spent hanging out with the new nieces and nephew (my step-sister's kids who I just met) who called me "Aunt Faith" right away.  Had a lot of great bonding moments.  I also got to bond quite a bit with the adopted step-sister who drove my M and Step-Dad's car out to them as part of our carpool and lives here close to our town.

Friday, S16 drove us (myself and the adopted SS) into Spokane and we did some Mall shopping for back to school things for S, then headed down to Coeur d'Alene for paddle boarding.  The Taste of Coeur d'Alene festival was lining the streets and in the park area next to the lake so we got a great atmosphere with live music, lots of yummy treats, and I paddle boarded that section of Lake Coeur d'Alene.  SS rented a kayak for an hour for $10 since I squeezed in only one paddle board thinking I wouldn't have room for much more than that in the car.  And S16 didn't want to get in the lake at all, so I gave him $20 and he wandered the festival, heading back to the car to turn on the A/C and listen to music while he waited for us.

We left around noon on Saturday.  S got lots of driving in, including crazy 5 lane interstate driving.  And we all survived!  We drove up through Idaho, part of Oregon into Washington and came back through Montana.

The kids were already wondering when I would be back to visit again.

So far M seems to be doing well.  It's a small town with not a lot of people and lots of farmland.  Rolling wheat fields and such.  They have chickens and bunnies and a garden, which is a lot like what I grew up with so I think M will be peaceful there.  The step-sister and her H are very capable with helping with my SD.  Her H is an EMT firefighter so he's at the house when he isn't on calls.  She homeschools the kids.  They were settling into a routine with M taking the night shift with SD and being close by if he needed something and napping during the day while step-sister and hubby  did the care during the day.  He had a visit scheduled with a doctor for today to set up primary care and then they plan on having home health come in and do some therapy with him.  He was doing well when I left.  I could see him growing happier and stronger each day, and less foggy.  Their suite has his bedroom and then another room with M's twin bed, and a sitting area with their recliner's.  I set up their tv with a Roku so they could watch tv together when they want, and M also had a built in desk which she will love to sit at and write letters.  I can also see her reading a lot, as well.  I updated her digital photo frame with a plethora of pictures of her to have of her family and sat it on her desk for her to enjoy.

It was pretty hazy up in Washington with the fires going on around there, so that affected my breathing a bit.  I was so happy to see blue skies and puffy white clouds as I got closer to Colorado.  Although we have been having some heavy rains and due to the fires last year, a lot of mud slides are happening on our interstate.  I'm glad I did not have to drive that direction and won't plan on driving it anytime soon, not that it's open anyway.

I hope everyone is well.  I'm headed to catch up with y'all on your posts.   :)

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#2: August 05, 2021, 10:25:06 PM
I'm definitely having to work hard for my new promotion money.  Work is constantly busy and I don't ever have enough time to finish everything, so I have to prioritize.  I just keep plugging away.

After work last night, D19 and niece 18 and I went paddle boarding just as the sun was slipping over the horizon.  It was incredibly peaceful.  Everyone else was getting off the lake as we were getting on.  The sky was beautiful, though we had a little haze from smoke blowing in from somewhere.  The lake was glassy, reflecting the cotton candy pinks and blues from the sky. 

I was so excited to come back from Washington to see that my neighbor had gotten my backyard finished with the new sod and some decorative rock.  It's beautiful.  D and I are going to take some time this weekend to finish cleaning up the patio.  Eventually we will replace the patio table with outdoor seating instead and add some new decorations.

Tonight D was at work when I came home.  It's been a quiet night at home catching up on here.  S16 hopefully got his braces off yesterday.  I can't wait to see him!  And his F took him to his back to school check-in the day before.  And thankfully, he stepped up while I was up in Washington and helped out getting S's drives with the instructor scheduled on the app.  I am grateful for this as I've had a lot on my plate lately, between helping my M pack for her move and getting my new position, and then the drive 1,000+ miles away and back.

xH's picture popped up on my FB feed today.  It was a post xMIL made yesterday on his birthday.  I remembered that it was his birthday, but did not see the need to reach out as I felt I should just quietly reflect on his birthday without seeking him out about it.  Mirroring him this year in regards to my birthday.

The picture was of him in a suit and looked like he was at a wedding of some sorts, but the other person was cropped out of the picture.  Definitely a more recent picture of him.  As usual, the picture cemented the altering from my former H to a person that slightly resembles my former H, but not by much.

I'm glad tomorrow is Friday.  Getting back Sunday evening and then returning to work right away has been a bit exhausting.  I have noticed that my body seems to be so happy at returning to my familiar bed, that once I go to sleep once I have tucked myself in, I have been sleeping the entire night without remembering waking multiple times in the night.  Dreams seem to be more stabilized too.  I'm still pretty tired when I wake up to my silent alarm in the morning.  I need to work on getting to sleep earlier in the evening.

D and I need to go get our passport photos tomorrow night.  We have been talked into hopefully taking a trip next May along with my B, SIL, nephew and they offered to pay for S16.  We are hoping that there won't be any issues with the getting of the passports, but want to give it plenty of time in case it takes a while for them to come to us.  I've been contemplating how to raise the funds for me.  D is planning on paying for herself.  We are getting excited, but I'm trying not to get my hopes up too much.


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#3: August 06, 2021, 02:42:09 AM
Following along Faith

I saw something in the news about a horrible mud slide on the Million Dollar Highway through Glen Canyon. Is that what you were talking about?
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#4: August 06, 2021, 08:05:14 AM
Following along, Faith. And I appreciate the reminder that it’s time to renew my passport as well!
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#5: August 06, 2021, 08:41:22 AM
Faith your vacation sounded amazing and busy.  Thanks for sharing it with us.

It's always nice to get home to your own bed though, isn't it?   :)

I just talked with my brother in CO (Arvada) but he never mentioned the mudslides.
Hopefully the rains stop now.  Those mudslides are scary.

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#6: August 06, 2021, 08:55:51 AM
Btw...Redlight King is one of my favs.  Bullet in My Hand is the best.
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#7: August 06, 2021, 06:00:15 PM
Following along Faith

I saw something in the news about a horrible mud slide on the Million Dollar Highway through Glen Canyon. Is that what you were talking about?

Yes, UM, that's the one.  It also dumped into Hanging Lake, which used to be quite beautiful.  So sad.





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#8: August 06, 2021, 06:00:57 PM
Following along, Faith. And I appreciate the reminder that it’s time to renew my passport as well!

Your welcome, C!   ;)
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#9: August 06, 2021, 06:05:37 PM
Faith your vacation sounded amazing and busy.  Thanks for sharing it with us.

It's always nice to get home to your own bed though, doesn't it?   :)

I just talked with my brother in CO (Arvada) but he never mentioned the mudslides.
Hopefully the rains stop now.  Those mudslides are scary.

Welcome home!

Yes, crazy mudslides Thunder.  My brother is a trucker and he and 18 other semis had to spend 7 hours parked in the tunnel because they got caught in the very first mudslide and CDOT had to put them somewhere while they cleaned it up.  Thankfully the tunnel had a bathroom they could use.  He has to drive up to Vail every day and so his boss put a policy in that they had to be out of Vail and headed home by noon so that they wouldn't get caught in the afternoon rainstorms and resulting mudslides on the burn scars from last year.  Somewhere, I saw video footage of it taken from a rafter who was in the river at the time.  I'll see if I can find it.

Btw...Redlight King is one of my favs.  Bullet in My Hand is the best.
I'll have to listen to that one and some others by RK.  I think I came upon them randomly and need to listen to more of them.

Edit:  Here's the video.  You might have to have Facebook to watch it.
https://www.facebook.com/watch/?v=1178191736032119

That was in June
Here is the most recent:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ycNdz4JHqYo
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