I have to say, Treasur, that I find your form of honestly - gentle but unyielding, loving but firm, to be very appealing. You offer new perspectives to struggling people, all the while showing great respect for their choices and emotional responses.
I have been thinking a lot about the things you describe here. I’m not sure why I have been thinking back on the early part of W’s crisis… maybe it’s that part of my brain that thinks of the perfect comeback an hour after it would have been useful in a debate. But I was thinking about W saying that I was her best friend, even as she was hoping to form new traditions with her limerent object. She was so hurt, so shocked that I was unsure about whether we could be any sort of friends at all after things settled out. And it comes down to the fact that, MLC or not, she still chose to emotionally abandon me and to betray the promises she made to me. She chose to not talk to me about things that affected me. I mean, a lot of people have some version of “unraveling” in their lives - MLC, response to a massive life change, illness, accident - and we change as a result of it. Our commitments are still our commitments, and breaking those will have consequences. And the consequences in this case include a shift in my boundaries - and I don’t know what the new boundaries would have looked like, but my close friends are people whom I trust, and people with whom the relationship is truly reciprocal. So, as you point out, even if there were still some love there, that would in no way preclude my saying No to a friendship with her. I think we have seen that from several of our vets here.
Please know that my description of things looking “a bit different” was intentional understatement and in no way meant to minimize what has changed and what you have built for yourself. I find you to be an incredible example of what it means to thrive after an unforeseen trauma.