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My Story A clean slate
#30: April 21, 2024, 05:11:27 PM
One day at a time-
I think we do get to the unaffected stage after we can’t be surprised anymore.  They can still give us a jolt with status changes for a second, but that is just (IMHO) from having to worry if that will affect our forward moving progress. You sound like your more than mentally prepared for anything. I also think our unaffected emotions are based on our acknowledgement that they aren’t who they once were.
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Re: A clean slate
#31: April 22, 2024, 12:47:20 AM
Thanks KayDee, UM and FaithWalker.. Karma is about to hit O'Wife I guess..

So.. xH and O'Wife packed their bags in the Middle East (after 5 years) and moved to xH's town. More specifically, to xH's parents home. The day that I've been dreading has come and, quite honestly, I feel absolutely nothing. I'm not sure if this is down to the overall feeling of numbness that has been with me for a long time (not specifically related to xH's, more of a generic numbness) or because despite still having some of the trauma effects of what he put me through, I don't actually care anymore about them being together.

It will be interesting to see how things unfold for them now..

Sounds like you have graduated to the "observing a bug under a microscope" stage - no emotional involvement or impact - more like morbid curiosity - like watching an impending train wreck safely from a distance away.  Otherwise known as "it is what it is and what it is not is my circus or my monkeys. I have my own life to deal with and that is no longer a part of it."  I agree with KayDee though... Best to just leave them to it because it no longer needs to impact your life.
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