I just wanted to check in to sympathize and say I hope you have gained a bit more equilibrium emotions-wise. I don't know as much as many on this site, but I do know our emotions can be a bit unpredictable in this midst of this traumatic experience. Or maybe it's just they seem unpredictable, because feeling sad, angry, vulnerable, that's pretty normal given the situation. We are in the wake of another person's crisis, and we keep receiving aftershocks. Just when I think I have a handle on things, I get side-swiped again and I fall into a bit of a pit. Sometimes it is because I am triggered, other times, I don't really know why. All I know now is that it is normal. You are normal. I try to be with the feelings as much as I can, because, grim as it is, I know (but have to keep reminding myself) - it will pass.
I have often read hat the MLCr feels unworthy, thus you could say, not needed. They seek an emotional other who is on their emotional wavelength to feel valued. My H pretty much turned into a teenager in the way he spoke and behaved. He found someone who mirrored this. But I know, as I type, you can drive yourself insane analyzing what they say. It could well be how he felt in that given moment, that he wanted to be needed, but as you have been desirous of having more quality time with him (you have brought this up with him a lot this last few months), he should know that. Right! This is the MLC effect I feel. They are in their own super-bubble of needs and nothing really bursts it - until it (hopefully) bursts.