Thunder, all is well. I am going through some IV radiation and doing well with that. Working, doing my art and done with all the crap I was left to so I have nothing left I have to fix. LOL! I still get sad, I wish for my best friend back but I also see a lot I miss when we were married. I see how much I missed that was right in front of me. My MLCer was missing for a while. He just didn’t know who he was and what he really wanted other than medical school. Lol. He didn’t know how to stand on his own. He didn’t lead, he followed and I did it all thinking we were both on the same page. He didn’t communicate, he’s quiet ways now says a lot to me. I took those as us being on the same page. I wasn’t looking hard enough to see he was missing.
Now, after the affair which I’m assuming is over he is for the first time on his own making his own decisions and choices. No one helping him, telling him what to do or him becoming someone else through his quiet ways. This is the place now that he become his own person.
So, I guess I’m good. I’m lonely wishing I had that friendship. I miss that. I don’t know if the rest of my life is going to be this lonely journey but I’m doing well.