Thanks everyone for the encouraging words. I am moving forward, slowly, slowly, slowly LOL. But, I do sort things out and tidbits like I posted is clarification for me. I need to see what I think so reading it also helps me.
Thunder, I should see something next week. If I don’t then I will have to contact him. I am giving him the benefit of the doubt hoping he does this without my intervention. When he was paying alimony the first time he did it without my contacting him. But, he might have been scared of the courts back then. I don’t know. I’m praying he does this on his own.
OffRoad
That’s a totally different picture. I still love my MLCer, I always will but he doesn’t show any signs of putting me back into his life. I mean, he moved back into the state he left me in, he’s about 45 minutes from me. Living in a basement where he took a job and has no TV, all alone and he doesn’t try to reach out at all. I would say he close to being done with MLC. I think he’s just a bit pass the depression waiting to jump into acceptance at some point. He is pretty consistant in not texting me, calling me or reaching out in any way.
If he does get his life together he would have an open door to a new exciting love. One who wouldn’t know much about what he did. I would love for him to contact me so we could talk, or I could help, etc I have always been kind to him. He 100% know I love him still. He doesn’t care. So, I just continue to move forward and let go. I believe God could step in but I’m not even sure that he would at this point. I do believe in miracles. But, if he ever did come back it would be lots of counseling, lot of rehashing to close the past door. I have so many questions that I would need to work through to move ahead in a relationship with him. But, again I don’t see that in the future. I will say this. He’s on the MLC seven year mark. He has followed that to a tee so 2021 should be the year he Awakens and should be in acceptance. I guess that’s when we’ll see if anything at all changes.
Thanks everyone!