I agree so much with what Ready said. Some people may say that and some times in some situations for some people that may be what is best for them. Some wait it out hoping it will all go away. Some find a way to live beside it. Some have spouses who talk about going but don’t actually go. Some make peace with a kind of virtual marriage but absent spouse. Some feel that they have a covenant regardless of legalities. It really isn’t a one size fits all, even if the trauma and pain of it are shared by most LBS.
But you are not some people; you are you. And that’s ok. In fact it’s more than ok - imho the more ‘like ourselves’ we can be in the middle of such trauma, the better it probably is. Bc this kind of behaviour from a spouse is deeply discombobulating and throws most of us ‘off’ for quite a while.
I think most of us - in our own way - reach a point when we want peace more than we want the rollercoaster. And so we work out what peace means for us individually in a set of circumstances we did not choose to be in. And that’s ok.
There are also plenty of LBS here who wished they had filed earlier to step off the rollercoaster earlier. There are plenty here who had to file bc they were facing financial meltdown if they didn’t.
What seems to be quite common though is, regardless of who files, it ends up being the LBS who does the hard adulting stuff involved in legally and practically unravelling a marriage. Bc, well, MLCers are not great at adulting, are they? If they were, they probably wouldn’t be MLCers. I’m not alone here I’m sure in finding that, although my xh filed (well, he WAS engaged to be married after all lol, poor chap!), he dragged his feet at almost every stage and was invisible when it came to almost all of the practicalities. Which tbh at the time felt bewildering and like extra salt in the wound. It made me doubt/hope/don my magic mind reading hat/feel quite angry…..now I just think that they don’t do adult and assume we will bc we usually always did to some degree, and they find it tedious or uncomfortable compared to their fantasy new life fix so they usually avoid it. So I’m not sure who files matters nearly as much as it feels like it matters, if that makes sense…most LBS end up doing the heavy lifting of finishing what the MLCer started. And most of us look on with some bewilderment when the MLCer is then seemingly a bit shocked by the entirely predictable effects of their own choices lol.
The core truth - and it took me a couple of years tbh to get this - is that the marriage I had died at BD. Truthfully it probably had been killed off before BD unbeknownst to me. I did not lose anything in the legal process that I had not already lost. But what I gained was a ticket off his rollercoaster….it freed me of obligations and some of the uncertainty that affected all of the big stuff of life.
So you do you. You do what is best for you in impossibly hard circumstances and phooey to anyone who thinks they know better.
Have you had a conversation with a lawyer yet about some of the practicalities involved? What did they suggest you should do and not do?
T: 18 M: 12 (at BD) No kids.
H diagnosed with severe depression Oct 15. BD May 16. OW since April 16, maybe earlier. Silent vanisher mostly.
Divorced April 18. XH married ow 6 weeks later.
"Option A is not available so I need to kick the s**t out of Option B" Sheryl Sandberg