One day at a time-
I think we do get to the unaffected stage after we can’t be surprised anymore. They can still give us a jolt with status changes for a second, but that is just (IMHO) from having to worry if that will affect our forward moving progress. You sound like your more than mentally prepared for anything. I also think our unaffected emotions are based on our acknowledgement that they aren’t who they once were.
There is almost something harder about someone being alive and having to lose what you believed to be true of them than someone actually dying.
Indefatigability - determined to do or achieve something; firmness of purpose
perspicacity- a clarity of vision or intellect which provides a deep understanding and insight
Married July 1991
Jan 2018 BD1 moved out I filed for Div/ H stopped it
Oct 2018 moved back
Oct 2020 BD2
Feb 2021 Div-29 1/2 years
July 2021 Married OW
Feb 2022 XH fired
May 2023 went NC after telling XH we could not be friends
Aug 2023 XH moves w/o OWife