HI SC! Happy New Year to you!
I also had these types of conversations with H as we started to reconnect, especially about "lack of connection", intimacy, etc.
One of the things that my IC said is that for men, intimacy is not just about the physical connection/contact, it's also about the emotional connection as well. She said that with me withdrawing from H and not sharing things that were going on with me because I "wanted to make him happy" aka spare him from feeling any bad feelings, that I was withdrawing from him emotionally. So he wasn't feeling a connection with me because all I was showing was blank. I'm not sure if that makes sense or not.
My point being that while physical intimacy is very important, so is emotional intimacy. That's what she was getting from the EA, the ability to share her thoughts/feelings with OM. That is what was happening with my H's EA. She "got him" because she listened to him about what was going on and shared all her BS about what was going on with her to him. That created that connection and fed into his "Knight in Shining Armor" need he had during that time.
From what I am seeing here, you are both starting to have conversations with each other that are important and that she seems to be listening to you. I would also say that it is very important to show how you are listening to her, to question her gently about concerns about you that she brings up so that you can get more detail. The questioning is not about putting her on the defensive, it's more about pinpointing the detail about what she means when she says something. This will help you understand if she is projecting something at you or if it is really something that you may want to take a look at and own.
Also, during this time, I still did a lot more listening than talking with my H. He was still cycling and dealing with issues and one day he would be very affectionate and the next day would be standoffish. So even though we were back in the same room, he was still dealing with a lot of his own internal issues.
As he was working is way through them, we would have some sort of big R discussion about once a month always initiated by him. And this is where his hurt, guilt, pain, etc would come up and I really had to listen. The really hard one for me was when he started to use the same BD language again... and I got angry... but after I forced myself to stop and listen, that was when he revealed his deepest guilt to me and his pain.
Patience is your friend right now. Things are going well in deed and you are handling yourself very well! Having no expectations during this time is really key as well... heck I remind myself of that daily even though my H and I seem to be reconnecting... it helps me to enjoy the time with him that much more.
"Nothing others do is because of you. What others say and do is a projection of their own reality, their own dream. When you are immune to the opinions and actions of others, you won't be the victim of needless suffering." - don Miguel Ruiz
The Four Agreements by don Miguel Ruiz
1. Be impeccable with your word.
2. Don't take anything personally.
3. Don't make assumptions.
4. Always do your best.
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