Happy New Year, everyone!
I hadn't been on for a while, just came on and read this thread, and Anjae's comment made me smile -- that my H is "still where the buses don't run". Yes, she's right, that's about it in a nutshell.
It's been many years for me, I have no contact with my H, he is in irregular contact with our children, but there doesn't appear to be any real relationship.
One thing I am very sad about is that my children no longer really remember him being "the good Dad", being at home with us and engaged with our family life. They were young then, they are young adults now. They have a lot of hurt and anger still about it, they do their best to not let it affect them, but the whole thing does have a lasting effect. We talk about it and acknowledge it; our latest line is that "acceptance doesn't mean endorsement".
Like so many say, I don't like the current version of my H that I see (or hear about, rather, or sometimes see on social media), it is very far from what I knew. I do love my husband, wherever he may be, but accept that the current version of him, or the current person inhabiting his body, or however it can be put, is someone completely different.
I don't really think about him "coming back"; I've always known that if he were to want to, I/we would deal with it then, and the person "coming back" would be in some way different to the one that is there now, and I have no idea what that might look like at this point.
Is he still in replay/crisis/whatever? Sometimes I think that rather than being in full crisis, he is living the consequences of his actions during crisis, if that makes any sense. He doesn't contact me so I no longer have any direct experience, this is just what I hear from others. He may well be wondering how the h - e - double toothpicks he got where he is, but if that is a problem for him it's to something I know about.
I'm as happy as I can be; it makes me sad to see that all sorts of "guidance on divorce" is bandied about this time of year, but my life is reasonably settled and I'm not looking for another relationship. My line to my friends is that I'm not ruling it out, but I'm not out looking, and that ends the conversation.
My children refuse to meet the latest OW, it may well happen someday if, for example, they attend an event hosted by someone in H's family, but otherwise that drama is away from our daily life.
So here's to another year of calm, everyday life!