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My Story Re: Husband is moving out
« Reply #50 on: March 17, 2019, 04:28:50 AM »
Ophelia,

I’m sorry about discovering the info on the apt.

It does sound as though you’ve got your head about you quite quickly and well. That’s a terrific thing.

As for MCing keep plugging away slow and steady. There’s often lots to work through and it seems as though your H will have a more difficult time.

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Re: Husband is moving out
« Reply #51 on: March 17, 2019, 05:51:51 AM »
You sound as if you are doing remarkably well.
And yes, gut wrenching as it was to have a magic vanishing h in my case, I think living with an MLCer can be impossibly hard.

It sounds as if you are still doing MC together?
How useful or not has that been? Some folks come on not being sure if they should do MC in the first few months after BD and some found it either damaging or just a bit of a surreal waste of time. Anything useful you can share?
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Re: Husband is moving out
« Reply #52 on: April 12, 2019, 06:29:42 AM »
Hi Ladies,

Sorry for being such a loser and not posting in forever, but it was partly because Ive been in a bit of a funk and didn’t really now how to articulate what has transpired in the last 6 weeks. There have been a few updates since I last left off, one big one was that on my own I came to realize that my H moving out was a GIFT! Turned out I didn't DIE! Was feeling relieved and free! So in MC, H and I decided for BOTH of us to tell our son that we were separating and that we were on the same page.

 My S handled it like I thought he would,,,pretty pissed off at both of us and scared.We assured him it had nothing to do with him and that we were committed to going to MCing. We told him while we went on a ski trip together for a week so he had time to process with both of us, and thought it was good for him to see that my H and I were cordial to each other and still love each other. I was relieved we got that out of the way and my H and I finally broke the news of our separation to family and friends, which I was dreading but glad to get it out of the way and surprisingly everyone was very supportive.

 I still believe beyond a shadow of a doubt that my husband is going through a crisis whether you wanna call it bad life or transitional.
He is still not the man I married and not even the same person he was a year ago. In the last thread, I was asked if I thought MCing was helpful/worth it....at first it was a complete waste because my H secretly didn't see how to get past how hopeless he was. I think what changed things was his own individual therapy that he had been doing for 6 months prior. Luckily when he got depressed he had the good sense to seek help. Even though he knew he wanted out of the marriage I think there were some seeds planted that bore fruit later on. I also think “kicking him out of the house” was a game changer.

He told me the week he moved in was the lowest point in his life, and I said “well what the heck did you think was going to happen.” He said I knew it would be hard but I had no choice, I had to do it.” Classic MLC...this is why in the end you have to let them go through they're journey or else nothing changes. It also shows me that he doesn't know himself, because after he moved out I think he realized he was still miserable and didn't have anyone to blame.
Meanwhile even though I was still bummed out I had visitors and did lots of fun stuff, planned vacations and was just enjoying doing whatever I wanted whenever I wanted. You can call it “Getting a life”, being good to yourself,,self care...and my H saw it and saw that it was NOT an act, and I think that was a big wake up call. Or maybe he just saw the fun, happy person that he fell in love with along time ago.

I have learned in MCing that we both contributed to the huge distance between us and the good news is that the stuff we did is what MOST couples in counseling do wrong. In other words we are not bad people, we tried and failed at communication. I learned that I am conflict avoidant but some of that was because my H would blow up when I tried to present a problem to him and I learned that he was not a safe person so I kept things inside. He learned I was very emotional and sensitive and took thing to heart so he bottled up stuff.
This is all normal stuff and I am grateful I have learned so  much about myself and my husband as painful and messy as it has been. But I will say I still think actually I know he is going through a crisis he has a heaviness to him all the time. He in some ways is more intense, and it scares me to think that I am not sure I want to be with him in the future. We cannot go back to our old marriage and we both know that and are working on ways to improve on our issues but I still have lost a lot of respect for him for putting me through hell and back. But I also feel like I have learned so much about myself and am happier than I was so i guess I have mixed emotions about it all. I am not making any decisions about anything for a long time because the dust is still settling and I dont want any pressure. My H keeps telling me that his Apartment is NOT his permanent home and he does not want to be there forever...funny how the table have turned. I feel pressured by this type of comment but I feel like at least I can talk to him about it and realize bottling it up is not good.  So that is my update, sorry it turned into a mini novel. I just thought you all have been sooooo supportive and encouraging to me, I wanted to touch base. I hope you are all doing well and thriving!
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Re: Husband is moving out
« Reply #53 on: April 12, 2019, 08:12:05 PM »
Wow - what a remarkable change. I’m glad you told your S and he will be okay. Amazing how you embraced your new situation and are re-evaluating what you want out of yourself, out of life and out of your marriage. I’m in awe.
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Re: Husband is moving out
« Reply #54 on: September 14, 2019, 11:11:02 PM »
Hi again Everyone,
It has been about 5 months since I have posted, not sure really where to start ,,,,quick recap, H dropped the DB on my july 2018,ILYBNILWY,,,,blamed me for a good deal of his unhappiness, he had been seeing a therapist to his credit and agreed to go to MCing although after 4 months I found our he had been looking to move out,I  kicked my H out last January after discovering on the internet that he was checking out a very swanky sky rise apartment,was sick over it and had to tell our S about us seperating BUT then realized to my surprise I felt like i could breathe after he left because he had been so intense and irritable with me for months. I remind myself that if he does not come back I will not have put up with his intensity,,and he needs to change,our old ways of living together were not working and we need a new relationship. MC had taught us both about our dysfunctional ways of relating to each other and keeping things in, we both had issues for sure but I still am fairly certain my H is having a MLC.

Since last October we have been going to MC although over the summer not as much,but it has been hard, I still have a lot of anger and mistrust concerning my H and I think he is still in the throws of MLC and is ambivalent, 2 weeks ago he said he was pretty sure he wanted to end things and then last week he said he was open to more counseling. It has been an emotional rollercoaster ride but I have had some great things happen to me in other areas of my life. I got a job teaching kids with Dyslexia how to read and it pays well and the clinic is across the street from my house and I really like the people I work with and my students, its the first time in 20 yrs I’ve had a paycheck! If feels really good to be doing something independent of being a mom and a wife,,,I have reconnected with old friends and made new ones and for the most part I am liking my life and feel good,

I still miss my old Husband and remember the good times, but he is not the person I married and I know he will need time to find himself again,,,sorry for all the bad cliches. He has acknowledged that he blamed me for everything and admitted there was nothing wrong with me, he had tears in his eyes and said he will regret that for the rest of his life, but the damage has been done and there is a lot of fallout.I still think he may cut and run but if that is the case I will keep on keeping on and will be fine, its just surreal after 2o yrs of M to end up like this. He was away last week, we go back to MC this week. Have no idea what to expect but know I will be fine no matter what. It has been over a year since the DB and I was a wreck and I still feel scared but am in a much better place thankfully, I have found all of youre post reaffirming and my apologies for not posting sooner.
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Re: Husband is moving out
« Reply #55 on: September 17, 2019, 04:38:15 AM »
Welcome back Ophelia
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Re: Husband is moving out
« Reply #56 on: September 19, 2019, 08:17:18 AM »
You will be okay.
You will be more than okay from the sounds of it.

I think that was my favorite point in my own healing - when I realized that yes, it still hurts, yes I wish it didn't happen - but yes, I will be okay.

Kudos to him and you for both still going to MC

And congratulations on having your very own paycheck - how awesome that your job is just across the street
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