[UnconditionalLove]

Happy New Years Everyone!

I'm excited about this new year.  I couple of days ago I wasn't but God has brought me back to my main purpose.  I go to a study on Thursday's for singles.  We are working through a book that we did last Spring.  Yes, I feel like it's that good.  I have so many stories where God has brought me though all the horrors of my now EX H's horrible MLC.  God has protected me in so many way, healed me and kept me standing.

I wanted to see if anyone would be interesting in grouping together and going through this book as a devotional started with the first chapter today.  You can download it right into your phone.  It's called Draw The Circle by Mark Batterson.  It's his second book.  I think the chapters are so good that it works well as a devotional.  Last night I started praying about what to pray for 2016 and I wan't to share my journal it surprised even me when I wrote this, this morning. I would love for all of us to do this devotional, I believe God will do great things with our spouse, ourselves and those around us.

Day One

I need to step back and allow God to be God.  I need him to do his job without my help.  His timing is perfect.  I can't speed it up, change the path or make anything happen.  I don't want to take the easier road.  I certainly don't want to manufacture my own miracles.  I need to stay humble, stay patient and stay focused.

As I go into 2016 I am yet again reminded that my now EX H's wellness is still my focus.  My job is to keep him lifted and surrounded in prayer.  YES,  I just wrote that as God just revealed that to me.  I need to stay out of the way but pray!  I also can't answer my own prayers.  I don't know what God has in store for me in 2016 but I know we will walk through whatever together.

I think I need to remember this one thought.
If I truly love EX H it's not about us together, it's about his well being.  My focus is about him getting better.  My love for him may not have the results I might be praying for although I do pray I see EX H back in my life one day, it's a hope, but True love oversees that.

Whether he comes back to me or not I want to see him well.  This is the most unselfish thing I can do is pray for healing knowing I'm praying for someone who doesn't think I'm enough.  Praying for someone who might not even deserve my prayers, who has hurt me, shamed me, broken me, humiliated me and left me for someone who replaced me, caused a divorce and shattered my life and yet... I still love the man God brought to me over 35 years ago.  I will continue to pray for his healing, his joy to come back and his return to goodness.  Love isn't easy.  I will STAND!

BOOK SUGGESTION
Draw The Circle - Mark Batterson