[Father5]

    OFFROAD I am one of those people !

I couldn't figure out what was going on. We lived beach front on one of teh nicest beaches in the world. We had beautiful happy kids I was always so happy in life I actually would ask God what I did to deserve all of this. I was so happy with life I would pinch myself sometimes.

  Then I slowly started to see changes. I couldn't figure out what was going on with my wife. I could feel her pull away from me When I would ask what was going on she said nothing I am just wore out from the kids. This went on for months then she said we had to have a talk via text message. She said I work to much I am never home. I said i would make changes and did and that if we had to make changes we would as she meant the world to me and I would have done anything for her. I believe that was BD 1 for me as she wanted to ask for divorce but chickened out. When I asked of she wanted a divorce she acted like I was crazy.

  The next six months we were looking at new houses. I bought her a new car and we talked about future plans etc. Yet at this time I could feel her pull away even farther. This all made me think it was me. Why do I feel like she is constantly pulling away from me? Doing and saying bizarre things, that even her sister noticed. I would cry on my way to work, I thought I was literally going crazy. My sister is Bi Polar and I thought I was becoming that as well. I would call my mom and asked for help. I was almost relieved at BD at first because I realized I wasn't FIRETRUCKING CRAZY! I was so depressed and had never been before. Very Very Scary.

  Now I am getting back to the place where I am getting happier most of the time. Back to my normal happy go lucky self.

   

[Stand Tall]

Yes, F5. I feel you on that one. The first 10 to 15 years of my M I was an upbeat person. I loved my life, job and family. H and I had many friends and everyone loved us. Over time when his MLC started creeping in there was a huge change in me. I got quiet and distant from everyone. I hardly smiled and I sat away from others. People thought I was stuck up and left me alone.

  Since BD and me GAL things have really changed inside of me. I talk and smile at everyone. I feel people are drawn towards me. I just a positive person all the time. Maybe not always happy about everything, but definitely upbeat and can control the happiness. When a situation tries to take me down I think of the positive in the situation. That always turns things around.

  To be honest I think that, for me, it is because I have put God upfront and personal in my life, but even more so since this all began.

I'm just lovin life
Stand Tall