[terra]

How I work through my thoughts and emotions:

I write them here and if I’m lucky, I get feedback and that helps me tremendously.

I read them here. I see so much of my own feelings expressed by members past and present who have struggled with all this too. It helps me to read how others say their feelings. Partly because I think I get swamped by my own language. There are so many good voices here.

I journal offline. Books and books and books of it.

I pray a lot. Often in my written journals. Sometimes out loud. Sometimes pretty loudly.

Occasionally I rail at h when I am driving. I get going and I will just yell ALL the truth at him, all the way home. He isn’t there at all of course and unless he bugged my car or phone, he never hears any of it. Except I’ll tell you something: sometimes he makes contact right after I’ve gone off like that. As if he heard every single word. It’s pretty weird when that happens. But, it also never really changes anything. He’s still gone, and still with ow2. The only change really is that I feel better for having expressed all my truth out loud. And like I said, sometimes very loudly.

And man, I cry a lot. Then rest, and see what clarity comes after that tearful release.

I pay attention to my nightly dreaming. That’s sometimes where I gain the most clarity and understanding. Also a significant reason I journal.

Occasionally I get really tired of my own words and verbal thinking. When that happens, I might turn all channels off and just set to an empty page and make art instead, or go somewhere and take many photos of what I see. I wish I had the talent and discipline to do it every day instead of journaling. Sometimes a picture really is worth 1000 words.

The art part might be escapism, or re-routing to a different path in life. I like it best, though.

[MyBrainIsBroken]

How I work through my thoughts and emotions:

I write them here and if I’m lucky, I get feedback and that helps me tremendously.

I read them here. I see so much of my own feelings expressed by members past and present who have struggled with all this too. It helps me to read how others say their feelings. Partly because I think I get swamped by my own language. There are so many good voices here.

Good one terra!