[MadLuv]

I still found myself grieving that life does not look the way I expected if would. It’s hard to explain.

I try to tell myself that many many people face terrible things and my "grief" seems rather "small" so I actually feel like I am a whining spoiled brat ( talking about people who are sick, who are homeless, who have lost everything in fires, hurricane's, abused etc).....however, it is really important to recognize that my feelings are real and I am allowed to feel them

I do the same. I mope for a hot second and then slap myself into reality. You know what has really gotten me through in the end. I had a 30 year marriage. Most people never get that. It was a successful marriage even if it ended so unbelievably. If I remain single for my remaining days, I was not single for most. It is not my preference to be alone now, but it is where I am.

[Reinventing]

She looked ridiculous - dressed very inappropriately.

Petty of me, but this would have given me some modicum of satisfaction.

[Reallytrying]

She looked ridiculous - dressed very inappropriately.

Petty of me, but this would have given me some modicum of satisfaction.

lol. It totally did. My dad who normally says nothing said “oh my” when he saw her. Lol. It was really bad. I’m immature enough that it amused me. It was quite the contrast between me and her 🤦🏽‍♀️