Good Morning.. this has been the longest week, I have gone down the rabbit hole, cycled, been very angry , stressed out, and now I'm just looking for a warm hole to crawl into and be left alone..
I want this week over with...
Our daughter had her blood work done yesterday.. it was very traumatic but she got through it. they will be checking for cancers, her thyroid. and also checking for diabetes .. in 6 months she has gone from weighing 120 to now 160.. she can not walk due to severe back pain, that becomes even worse when she sits, so laying flat on her back is the only way to get relief.. the pain is concentrated in her lower back and tailbone..she has no appettite and when she does eat she feels full after only a few bites, and feels bloated.
At this point her doctor suspects a tumor.. she has an ultra sound on Friday...
I am trying to stay positive and simply be here for her..im doing all I can to keep things calm around her..we are not having any discussions about H, anything that happens with him I'm keeping it to myself..
I had several text conversations with H yesterday.. i am not saying anything to him about our daughter at this time.. the text convo with him yesterday was in regards to two things.. #1 .. his credit card has had some charges that he claims he knows nothing about. ( we still have our joint accounts, even though i have some in my name only) .. so he is claiming he knows nothing about the charges.. the CC company informed me that the card was swiped for the transations..H repeatedly denied any knowledge and said his CC was always on him and that in fact the day of the charges he didnt go anywhere..
I had to laugh to myself.. i wasnt sure if he was trying to convince me or himself.. i didnt argue with him, just told him what the cc company said and told him they would be investagating it and that the account had been frozen and new cards were being sent ..he continued to go on and on about having his card on him at all times and there is no way anyone could get his card..it was as if he was doing a pre emptive strike on my accussing OW.. but i NEVER said a word about OW.
But im thinking to myslef how on earth was his card swiped without his knowledge.. he either gave it to someone.. or someone took it out of his wallet without his knowledge..
He said there is no way anyone had his card.. im thinking to meself.. so when you take a shower you have your wallet in the shower with you?!?! when you take your pain meds and a shot of whiskey and go to sleep , you are totally aware if someone got into your wallet ?!?!... i just kept it all to myself..
He is very angry about it... but for the first time he isnt directing it at me.. i have no access to his wallet, i have no access to his card... but he's living in a house with OW, her dad, her step brother and another relative...and the card was swiped at a business near OWs office..
#2 then a few hours later, he makes a comment about something that happened recently in the news in regards to immigration ( OW , her dad , step brother are from south america) H made a comment about how fed up he is with all these illegals , and how these illegals come into the country and pool all there money within families and buy homes, that they have all these family members living under one roof ETC... i did not say a word... but OMGosh...he is living in the middle of that mess.. OW supports DOCCA, she is a realtor that only sells homes to immigrants and its always situations where 3-5 family members pool their money in order to afford the house... so he is making these comments to me while living in it.. UNBELIEVABLE....i cant imagine , H is a total conservative, and hates liberals.. but he's living with OW who is an immigrant from south america,she is living with god knows how many family members... she is a liberal/socialist, sells homes to a specific demographic ( immigrants) supports DOCCA, is unethical in her businness dealings by representing the buyer and the seller in the transations.. etc...
WHAT ON EARTH DOES H HAVE IN COMMON WITH OW? I CANT IMAGINE THE CONVERSATIONS THAT GO ON IN THAT HOUSE...
I didnt say a word...
but im thinking to myself.. OH what a tangled web we weave, when once we practice to deceive...
Im just living a good, honest life... and there seems to be some stuff going on in LA LA LAND..