Merry Christmas everyone!
I know most of the people that follow this thread isn’t either here anymore or just got bored with it. LOL! I’m bored with it myself but it’s still a journal even if it’s only when I do get here. Not much is happening on the MLCer side but there is a couple of things. I will write about me first. LOL! Imagine that!
As some of you know and who have joined my FB business page I started a small painting business out of know where. That’s going well and people seem to be supporting it. Now, that I have most of the needed supplies bought maybe I’ll make a little more money from it and give a little more money to my fund to help women over 50 who have been abandoned. I really enjoy doing this and it keeps me busy and my mind from wondering. I’m still struggling financially but always get everything paid just in time. I hate living that way. It stinks. I can’t remember if I wrote that in October I was $300 short on my rent and emailed you know who only to be told he would help if he could but couldn’t. The money came in through some friends so it was covered. I sent ex and email back saying God stepped in, it’s covered. He wrote back Awesome, he always does. I didn’t take that as he always does for everyone. I told that as ex saying he also does for you. Because Yeah, God always does for me. LOL!
Anyhow, this week has been awful. To start out. Both of my 2 best friends up north are in the middle of a very tragic accident that took the life of one of the couples daughter in law who I knew very well. She was working with my other best friends and was running a power washer in a new home build cleaning in the garage and was over taken by fumes and died. My one friend, my ex’s best friend found her and that will be forever in his head. She was also working for him and I don’t know that he will every move past filling like it was his fault. The other family are just so beside themselves and I can’t be there for anyone. I hate that! She was young with 2 kids and a husband.
So, Monday I was crying. Both men the one who found her and the one that is her father in law is my ex’s best friends as well. I called my ex crying and left a message on his phone. Weird it wasn’t all filled up. I said, There has been an accident and xxxx was killed working for friend and explained what happened. I said, if there is any good in you left now if the time for you to be there for these friends. At one time they met something to you and they both need you know. Bye. About 10 minutes later he messaged me and said - Thank you for letting me know. I don’t know if he called by I’m guessing he probably texted both of them.
Two nights ago my ex’s cousin who lives in other country looked my up again on FB. Seems he also keeps me updated at Christmas to let me know if ex is going home for the holiday’s. He has everything year since the divorce. Well, this year he’s going but SHE is not going with him. I don’t know what that means. Who spends the holidays without their loved one? We never did that. Funny how he has money to buy these airline tickets for $900 but can’t help me out. Maybe he just didn’t have enough money to buy 2 tickets but it’s still weird. Why does he keep going home every Christmas? I’m almost sure that’s where his MLC issues stem from. I know he’s dad isn’t doing well but if you can come up with 1 ticket you would think she could or he could get that second ticket bought. Leaving her behind seems strange. But, maybe she’s not doing well with her Lupus. Maybe it doesn’t mean another at all.
Seems every Christina’s for me is the same. I keep thinking maybe this is the year he will maybe send something to apologize for all the stuff he left me with holding the bag. He had a chance to help me but he is still saying he doesn’t have a job. He has some money coming in or I’m almost sure he would be living in the same house as her. He still has his business and there isn’t much money coming in from that but there is some. He did work 1 day a week for a person but my brother found out he wasn’t there anymore. My guess he quit.
I still have my full time job and I’m doing my art. I will be working about 12 hours for a lady making calls after the holiday. So, hopefully I will be ok financially. Hope everyone has a wonderful Christmas. Now, I’m off to make some cookies.