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My Story They just don't understand 3
« on: July 28, 2019, 09:42:22 AM »
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Re: They just don't understand 3
« Reply #1 on: July 29, 2019, 06:34:32 PM »
Thank you UM  ;D
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Re: They just don't understand 3
« Reply #2 on: July 30, 2019, 02:51:30 AM »
Thank you UM  ;D



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Re: They just don't understand 3
« Reply #3 on: July 30, 2019, 04:12:14 AM »
Um has like 5 jobs now.
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Re: They just don't understand 3
« Reply #4 on: July 30, 2019, 05:22:55 AM »
Um has like 5 jobs now.

I just lost one..... I used to have a 10-15 second blurb on a local radio station (Pop/Rock) every weekday morning but, after 2 years, they decided to end it (which is JUST fine for me too). I never expected the gag to run more than a couple of weeks, let alone 2 YEARS!

So now I am down to four... BUT I will go back to school in September in a Certificate program that runs for 4 years....
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Re: They just don't understand 3
« Reply #5 on: July 30, 2019, 02:24:56 PM »
Um, did I say thank you.  ;D
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Re: They just don't understand 3
« Reply #6 on: July 31, 2019, 01:17:06 AM »
Um, did I say thank you.  ;D

Yep!  That is how the whole discussion about my myriad jobs started.... all beginning with a GIF...
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Re: They just don't understand 3
« Reply #7 on: August 10, 2019, 06:15:39 PM »
  I've been doing a lot of reading on HS for the past few weeks. I have nothing really to add to my story at this time. H has been real quiet. I do have a question to ask about though.

  The no contact, dim contact or contact, I've read about these and in my situation I don't contact him, but I do answer when he emails me. The only way for me to contact is by email. There are times that I have wanted to email him and ask a question about our car, but I don't because I've read to just leave him be. I know that I can figure things out with the car and take it in and have it serviced or repaired without a problem, but H is a mechanic and I have wanted to just get advice to make sure I'm not getting ripped off when I go to a shop.

  My question is do I just email him and talk like normal or should I just leave him be and handle things the best I can? What is the answer to contact? H has never monstered at me. He has monstered to other people about me though. Can someone give me advice on this please?

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Re: They just don't understand 3
« Reply #8 on: August 10, 2019, 06:43:54 PM »
My opinion is that only because he is a MECHANIC, it's perfectly fine to do so.  You are only seeking a business-like answer.

Otherwise, *no way*, because it would be seen as nagging/pressure.
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Re: They just don't understand 3
« Reply #9 on: August 10, 2019, 07:20:00 PM »
My question is do I just email him and talk like normal or should I just leave him be and handle things the best I can?

My question is why do you need someone else's advice on what to do? This is not a life altering decision.
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Re: They just don't understand 3
« Reply #10 on: August 10, 2019, 07:32:07 PM »
Thank you Mego and NRM,

  You guys are right. I guess in a way I wanted to see if he was receptive of my email. I know it's best to just let him be. I mean, I went through surgery a month ago and never told him, so whats a little car work. Plus me making the decision will help with my self esteem and give me strength.

  Hi Megogirl,
 
  How are you doing? I was following along on your page a few weeks back. I've kept you in my prayers since then. I hope you are in a better place now. Take care

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« Reply #11 on: August 10, 2019, 07:35:57 PM »
You misunderstood my response. I meant why do you need the forum's advice on whether to contact him or not?
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« Reply #12 on: August 10, 2019, 07:46:13 PM »
When I need something done and need his help I ask.  But only if it pertains to h.  Usually seldom, and involving kids.  I asked him to set up Microsoft, security, and child safety on some new laptops at the beginning of the summer.  I now know not to bother asking.  He was grumpy, and just now getting done.  The kids need them Monday for school.

So, it depends on where yours is.  Mine is no longer helpful.
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Re: They just don't understand 3
« Reply #13 on: August 10, 2019, 09:03:12 PM »
NRM,

  I was asking the forum about contact in general. I've read about so many different rights and wrongs in making contact. I've been following shocks sis and have been reading denjef31old posts and I just don't want to make the wrong decisions. If it would upset a mlcer to have a spouse contact then I won't do it. Talking about the car has been a subject that we have shared throughout this crisis. He seems to take pleasure in telling me what to do with repairs. Its seems to make him happy that I have been learning to work on the car. That's all.

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« Reply #14 on: August 10, 2019, 09:18:45 PM »
If you are reading threads that are making you fearful to that extent that you are worried about whether asking for help from your H or anyone else with a car problem is "right" or "wrong" then I would say the first thing to do is to stop reading those threads because they don't know your H at all. No one is better equipped to make that decision than you, and if reading posts on here is making you doubt your own judgment about how to deal with YOUR OWN husband then really that becomes a bigger problem then whether to ask him or not. This forum has no fortune tellers or mind readers who have a special formula that if you follow it, you will get exactly what you expect you will get. In the worst of his MLC, there were times when trying to do something on my own pissed my H off, and there were times when asking him for help pissed him off. There were times when he was responsive, and times when he wasn't. It's a crap shoot.

Anyone who convinces you that there is a right and a wrong in a matter like this is selling snake oil. Do what you think will help you to get your car fixed in the fastest, most inexpensive and stress free fashion. Because no one, not even you entirely, can predict for you what your H is going to do and how he is going to react.

Don't overwhelm yourself by being conned into making this a more important decision than it needs to be. It's only about fixing your car, it's not about fixing your marriage.
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« Reply #15 on: August 16, 2019, 06:31:00 AM »
Well..

There is a delicate dance between becoming self reliant and asking your MLCer for help.

Personally I have no problem asking my MLCer to do things that maybe 'used to be his job' that I am not so good at. Sometimes he will volunteer to do these things without me even asking. He will actually get upset if I say I will 'get a guy out to fix ___'. He always feels he needs to have first shot and sorting it out. ::)

Now don't get me wrong, the guy won't pick up shopping...or get the kids school clothes....or you know...day to day tasks.

But power washing the driveway? Sure.... Going up in the attic? No problem..... Building anything with a power drill? Absolutely.

I will stress though...it has to seem like it was HIS idea. If I said ''Beast will you fix the radiator'' it will be a death stare, or a moaning ''I don't have time'' conversation. But if  I offhandedly mention I need to get a guy out to fix my leaking radiator...''No no, let me have a look''.  ;)

This of course is taken at 2 years post BD so... make of that what you will.
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« Reply #16 on: August 16, 2019, 02:26:10 PM »
NYM AND Morts,

  Well, I took y'alls advice and I went ahead and emailed my H about the work I'm having done on the car. My real question was about an LBS making contact in general. I read that we should only contact them for kid stuff or court stuff, but for stuff that we can handle on our own that we should just leave them be.

  Mortsbride I went off of your advice with car stuff use to be his job. This was true for us. My H is a mechanic by trade so he always did the mechanical work on our cars.

When I sent the email I worded it as if I was looking for his input as to who I should take the car to.

  Two things, he will either tell me where I should take it or maybe he will volunteer to do the work himself.  I figured this will give him the option if he is in a giving kind of mood.

  Keeping my fingers crossed that he want to do the work which will save me hundreds of dollars.

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« Reply #17 on: August 18, 2019, 10:22:52 AM »
Hi all,

  Well, I heard back from H this morning. He did give me good advice on my car repair needs. Which was nice of him.

  Now for the big stuff. In telling me about himself and how he is doing, he said to me "I'm doing ok I think. I'm still dealing with my own health issues, it is what it is." This man has claimed to be sick since about a week before BD 17 months ago. I have always looked at it like this is his way of telling about his depression (mlc), but not knowing what is wrong with him. One day he will open his eyes to Gods message.

  He is asking me to meet up with him to sign a paper from the mortgage company acknowledging that I have seen the paperwork of him modifying the mortgage loan that I am not on. My DIL is a broker and talked to loan specialist about this and they tell me that I would not be required to sign anything since my name is not on the loan. I will meet up with him though. It would be nice to see him.

  He has also told me that he has rented the whole house out as of October 1st. Our house is a duplex and I have plans to rent out the downstairs and live in the upstairs. This is something that he agreed to and I have it in writing from him. This plan would free him up of all mortgage payments for the time it is rented. His plan does not work for me and I told him this. So he is either telling me this to get me moving along with the renting or we are now at a crossroad in this crisis and problems are about to start. Either way we do need to sit down and make an agreement that we both agree to and get that in writing and signed by both of us.

Another Day in the Life of a MLC'er  ? :o

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« Reply #18 on: August 19, 2019, 01:03:11 PM »
I hope the meeting goes well and he doesn't cause you any issues with the house situation. :)
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« Reply #19 on: August 19, 2019, 08:10:59 PM »
Thanks Mortsbride,
 
  I'm not worried about this. This same thing was presented to me about 6 weeks ago. Nothing came of it. It just makes it hard to know if he is just all words or if this is real. I would like to sit down and come to an agreement about the house and renting it out. Maybe write up an agreement that we are both happy with, but that would be the normal thing to do. I really am just not going to jump back on that roller coaster.

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« Reply #20 on: August 22, 2019, 09:31:21 AM »
So, i get another email which sounds a little desperate or maybe with frustrated attitude asking me to meet up with him so I can sign some papers saying that I have seen his mortgage loan modification. Then he wants me to go to his bank and have this form notarized. I have asked him 3 times now to email me a copy for further review. In one email he said that he was would be emailing a copy by the end of the day. Didn't happen.

  I have no plans on signing anything for him. I am not on his mortgage loan, I have no trust in anything he is doing right now and I am not his mother and will not be a part of his crazy world.

  I have plans to call his mortgage company and see if they will send me a copy of this form. He made this modification way back in February and nothing was said back then about me needing to sign anything. My gut is telling me that this form is for me to sign away my rights to our home.

  Do y'all feel I'm handling this situation correctly? I just don't want to meet up with him with him expecting me to sign this paper.

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« Reply #21 on: August 22, 2019, 10:08:19 AM »
Yes Stand, you are handling this perfectly.

Who signs a document until they've read it and knows what it means???  No person I know.
He is not furnishing a copy for some reason.
Just ignore his pleas until he gives it to you.
I wouldn't waste my time hunting down the bank for it.

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« Reply #22 on: August 22, 2019, 10:34:50 AM »
Thank you Thunder,

  So, I went ahead and phoned the bank and talked to a very nice man who explained what the document is and what its for. Same thing H said it was for. I still don't want to sign it until I have a copy in front of me and I have read it myself in my own space without him breathing down my neck. I also want a copy for my records.

  H had also told me that he know wants to rent out the whole property taking away the apartment that I will have for my home. That is something I will never agree to. The main house can be rented out for the amount of the original loan payment. If he has a higher payment now that is his problem not mine. I could live in the apartment for free and the tenants would even cover my utilities.

  I'm really putting my foot down on this one. H does not provide me with any spousal support, so if he wants to keep it that way it will have to be done my way. I'm at the stage of tough love and this stuff does not impress me.

  Its like dealing with a stubborn child.  :o

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« Reply #23 on: August 23, 2019, 02:37:13 PM »
  This morning I received a copy of the documents, through his email, that I need to sign for H loan modification on the house. It is what I was told by H and his bank. All should be good, but its put me in a position of making some, in my opinion, tough decisions. Here is the situation, I could use some input and advice on this.
 
  Loan modification means a higher interest rate, back to 30 years on the loan and about $200 more dollars a month in payment. We bought the house 3 years ago. H was already in crisis, but I was naive to it. He bought his Harley 1 month later.  :o. 9 months after BD house was going into foreclosure.

  The house is a duplex. We will rent out the main house and I plan on living in the upstairs apartment. Now that I am stronger I feel that it is time for me to go back home. All this sounds great and easy, but

  H wants to rent out the whole property leaving me with no place to live. I'm staying at my sons house at the moment, which works out ok, but does not give me full privacy or quiet time for myself.

  My son is a property manager by trade and he has run the numbers for me on how much rent we could charge for my home. What he tells me would be $300 shy of the mortgage payment or $100 shy of the original mortgage payment. This is not my problem as I didn't create this mess.

  I believe these are the choices that I am facing at this time. I am a stander so,

       1. Get what I have left in the house and walk away from the whole thing. I am not on the loan, but I am on the title making me owner of half of the house. This would mean I would have to store all my belongings costing me about $300 a month. This would also mean that I will not be signing the loan modification document leaving him blowing in the wind.
       
       2. Sign the document and allow him to rent out the property with me not knowing what is happening. Trusting that he is making sound choices.

       3. Tell him that in order for me to sign I will need to take controlling interest in the property. I will hire my son as the property manager and he will report to me. The rent payment will come to me and I will give it to H after I've seen proof of his mortgage payment being made. I will live upstairs. This would also mean H would have to trust me.

  I have a wonderful plan on who I would rent the house to. The veterans administration has a program for disabled/homeless veterans. I will be checking into this program on monday to see what I need to do to get this implemented. By doing this it will bring my H closer to the money he needs for the mortgage payment. I feel that this is a win win all the way around.

  I could really use some advice or opinions on this. I know its going to take some convincing on my part for him to give me control over the decisions on the house. My way will keep the house safe for our future.

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« Reply #24 on: August 24, 2019, 05:37:30 AM »
Well I am no expert here but...

1. If you are not in the property at the moment, perhaps walking away from the whole thing would be less of a headache in the long run...but I don't know how much you would have invested here. If you were to sell the property how much money would you make? If the mortgage is higher than the property value...you won't make squat..so I would walk away. If there is a considerable amount to be gained, I wouldn't as you are entitled to it. As for the ''stuff'' ...furniture could be left and sold or rented as furnished...if it is more personal items perhaps it is time to declutter? £300 per month is a lot for a virtual shed IMO.

2. This sounds like a horrible idea from what you have written. I would never trust my MLCer to make a sound choice. Perhaps yours is more mature and financially responsible than mine...but...  ::)

3. I am not entirely sure your MLCer will let you have this level of control. Remember we are the enemy. It would be a super hard sell to have him 'trust you' and 'give you control'. Hiring your son seems like a good idea as he is a property manager, but in the long run..if things don't go your way ...you are directly setting him up to be a middle man. If things go good...it will be great... if things go bad... you could damage your relationship with your son, or his relationship with his father. My mom alarm is flagging this a red flag. ''The rent coming to you, then you giving to H after you see proof of the mortgage'' is highly controlling. I know why you are doing it (for your security) but from a 3rd party it looks and feels controlling, so to your husband it will look even more controlling...does that make sense?

Perhaps there is another option.

Why don't you discuss with your MLCer (in as few words as possible  ::)) that you need to move out of son's for the reasons you described, that you would like to return to living in the apartment...that it would allow you to keep an eye on the tenants and keep them from destroying the house...that it would offer you a place to stay...it would offer son his privacy...and perhaps even suggest your idea about the veteran's to him. Maybe if you approach it as if you are trying to 'help him' instead of 'policing' him he might be more open to the idea?

As for ensuring the rent get's paid that part is tricky. While you want to make sure the mortgage is paid, him having the money flow through you is going to be a hard sell. You could try the tactic of ''the renters can pay me, and I will pay the mortgage so you don't need to worry about it...''. Most MLCers seem to want less responsibility so he might buy that one. Perhaps you could even set up a bank account simply for the rent to be paid into, and the mortgage to come out of? A join account simply for the house payment and rent would be an idea. One that you both have access to online (to view the incoming and outgoing payments) but that you are not allowed to withdraw funds from.. (this should be easy enough to set up with your bank if you both go in together).
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« Reply #25 on: August 24, 2019, 06:18:27 PM »
I know nothing about your situation, history or backstory with your MLC journey, but there is no way on God's green earth I would attach my name to anything the MLC'er is doing  that it isn't already on.  At this point, you should be focused on cutting ties, not creating new ones.

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« Reply #26 on: August 24, 2019, 06:30:17 PM »
Mortsbride,

  While reading one of Shocks Sis answers to a different LBS today I felt like her words were meant for me. I have also felt that God has been giving me the same message.

This is what she wrote:

 Hi Terra
Don’t respond to him he’s very manipulative and it’s a form of control.
Tell him nothing about anything you are doing and only respond if it’s life or death or something important about your children.
It seems to me he needs to have some control as he has none for himself.
Please let him know nothing.

  Knowing that the house is the only thing that is keeping me attached I've decided it's time to take my power back. This loan modification is the third thing that he has brought to me to save the house. I feel like he is playing a game with me.

  My DIL read the document that he wants me to sign and pointed out that the document expired a month ago. I have decided that I will be concentrating on removing my things from my house and I am going to drop the rope. My marriage and my ties up emotions will be put on a shelf and I will move forward taking care of me.

  I just can't let him continue on with this control. Today I received a brand new credit card with enough credit on it for me to rent a truck and a storage unit to put my belongings. I will only take what is important to me and I will leave all the junk for him to take care of.

  He will either sink or swim, but it is no longer my problem.
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« Reply #27 on: August 24, 2019, 06:38:46 PM »
BB,

  Thank you for your advice. Quick education on my sitch. H left 18 months ago. Like most is destroying himself financially and stopped paying for the house. Loan is in his name alone and I am on the title making me half owner of the property.

  To keep the house from going into foreclosure and most likely to save his job he modified his loan and because I am on title the bank needs me to sign acknowledging that I agree to the modification. I would not be signing up for anything new with my MLCer.

  You can see what I posted above.

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« Reply #28 on: August 25, 2019, 06:28:09 AM »
Ok, gotcha,  ST....you are attached, just not to the actual loan.  That may make a difference, but only if there is enough equity in the home to disperse, if the home is sold and dependent upon the agreement you have in place, should the home be sold.

At 18 months, this guy has only just begun his descent.  He has a lot more destruction to carry out, so my best advice is to sign nothing your own legal counsel has not approved.  This is not the man you once knew.  This person has no real feelings towards you, therefore your interests in this are nowhere in the picture as far as he's concerned.   Do your homework and check it twice.  Being just as ruthless and cutthroat may not be your style,  but I promise it will leave you better off down the road.

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« Reply #29 on: August 25, 2019, 09:50:48 PM »
BB,

  H and I have no agreement on the sale of the house, but with my name on the title he can't sell it without me signing off on it for the title company and I don't have plans anymore of helping him figure things out to fix his problems. I feel if I keep fixing things then he will never get through this. We bought the house just 3 years ago and with his non payments and now a modification to the loan there is no equity in the house.

  I'm a little confused as to why he ever bought it in the first place. I believe he was already in his MLC at the time. He had already BD me a year before we bought the house with the ILYBINILWY speech and then a month later he bought his Harley. He had already gone through a lot of the typical changes by then. I had no clue. I didn't know what a MLC was. I believe he was a live in for the first 2 years.

  He threw some controlling type words at me through an email, so I'm going to give it back to him. I'm moving my stuff out and walking away. Like you said "Being ruthless and cutthoat" needs to be used sometimes. If he want to take all the stress of preparing a house to rent then by all means have at it. I on the other hand will be sleeping at night.

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« Reply #30 on: August 25, 2019, 09:53:25 PM »
Hi

  I saw this on an old thread the other day and thought it would be fun to share. I mean, if we can't laugh at this MLC stuff once in a while...Check it out.

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« Reply #31 on: August 27, 2019, 08:22:20 PM »
  So, I get another email from the H today telling me that he is resending the paperwork that he needs signed for the bank for his loan modification. I mean, he acts like this is a dire emergency. He is telling me that we need to do this today or tomorrow because he will be going out of town on Thursday.  ::).

  So, I let it ride for about 4 hours and then told him that I wouldn't be able to do it today or tomorrow because I have work and today is my S birthday. I told him that we can get together next week. I told him to have fun on his trip and to be safe.

  I'm trying to send a message that he has no control over what I do and that I make choices on my schedule. First of all if this paperwork was so important to him then he should have contacted me in June or July when he got the paperwork from the bank. Now the paperwork is expired and he is racking his brain to get me to meet him to sign.

  I've spoken to the bank and asked about the document being expired. They told me its no big deal and that they are good with whenever I can sign. It makes me think that the ow is breathing down his neck about getting it rented. I will go over this weekend and change locks on the doors that I want to keep him out of. The main house will be his to rent. With that comes all the cleaning up of stuff I don't want.

  I'm not trying to be confrontational, but I'm also not going to let him push me around either. I told my S tonight that I don't want to put him in the middle of anything or be held responsible for my H failures. If H does not pay the loan payment and goes into foreclosure and he has the house rented then he can be sued for this. My S dosen't need to be involved.

  Well, I'll find out next week if we will be able to work together. Working together was something that came natural before BD. We shall see.

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« Reply #32 on: August 28, 2019, 02:06:18 AM »
I totally agree with your assessment Stand Tall... Schmoopie wants him to


Well, that is just too bad.... She'll get it when he gets it....

I also think it is a good idea to keep you S out of the loop.. Who needs that nonsense because, with a Mid-Lifer, it is probably not a question of IF the house goes into foreclosure but when...
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« Reply #33 on: August 28, 2019, 08:31:07 PM »
Thank UM,

  Thanks for the laugh. I can tell you that if ow is all about the money that will be her demise. H has always talked about hating his M because all she ever wanted from him was money. Before I met him she would call him only to ask for money. After BD she called me. This was the first time in 20 years that she called me. She asked me to accept her friend request on Facebook. The day after I accepted her friendship she sent me a request for money. When it happened again a week later I deleted her on my Facebook. Message to ow: Carry on with your selfish self. Looking forward to your obituary.

  On a better note. My company has been doing so well that I have had to open a Quickbooks account today. I have no education in bookkeeping, but I just finished up my setup and sent my first Quickbook invoice. I'm pretty proud of myself.

  Things are looking great for the future. I feel ready and not nervous about meeting up with H and talking about my plans for our house. I know I have come a long way now. I've taken control of my schedule and my life again. Its been a long time.

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« Reply #34 on: August 29, 2019, 12:34:47 AM »
Great News about your Company Standing, you really can be proud of yourself. You really dont Need a MIL like that in your life :-)

He is telling me that we need to do this today or tomorrow because he will be going out of town on Thursday.  ::).
Really!! WE NEED! >:(
I told him that we can get together next week. I told him to have fun on his trip and to be safe.
The perfect answer. You do what you have to do when you feel it is the right time to do it. Thats taking the power back and showing that you are no pushover. Its also how I operated, I decided when what got done, when she could come over (I would be out when she arrived) it drove her crazy.  ;D
  I'm trying to send a message that he has no control over what I do and that I make choices on my schedule.
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« Reply #35 on: August 29, 2019, 12:39:55 AM »
  Thanks for the laugh. I can tell you that if ow is all about the money that will be her demise. H has always talked about hating his M because all she ever wanted from him was money. Before I met him she would call him only to ask for money. After BD she called me. This was the first time in 20 years that she called me. She asked me to accept her friend request on Facebook. The day after I accepted her friendship she sent me a request for money. When it happened again a week later I deleted her on my Facebook.

OK. that is just TOO weird..... MIL is asking YOU for money? Sounds to me like...



As for the "We NEED to do this..." nonsense, you might wish to ask him "Who is We? You got a mouse in your pocket?"
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« Reply #36 on: August 29, 2019, 10:54:56 AM »
Whyus and UM,

  Another good one UM, mouse in his pocket. I could see if face if I said it.  :o. The MIL is the true definition of crazy. Yeah, I'm no longer the wife that does whatever he wants. 18 months has gone by and I've paved the way and, lets just say, I'm tired of dealing with the child like man. I'm going to be nice to him, but I'm going to do it as I see fit.

  In my future the only thing that will hold me back will be me. Thanks for responding guys. Schmoopie ;D

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« Reply #37 on: August 31, 2019, 11:36:02 AM »
  Here it is the last day of August. Where is this year going?

  When I went to the doctor on Monday for my checkup we talked about weight loss and how to achieve it in the wise years. She told me weight watchers was the best plan out there and I know this is true because I was once on it and lost over 20lbs. I just don't like the cost of it right now. She (doctor) also talked about intermittent fasting. I've heard about this. My DIL tried it, but didn't stick it out. This can be done for free. Has any one else heard of it or tried it. I guess you choose a 8 hour block in the day to eat/drink all your calories. Think I'm going to give it a try.

  I'm just wondering if anyone would be interested if I started a support page on HS for this type of weight loss or weight loss in general. Maybe share plans and recipes. Can a moderator please tell me how I could go about doing this?

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« Reply #38 on: August 31, 2019, 12:00:07 PM »
I do intermittent fasting....I usually don’t have anything other than coffee (because nurses run on coffee) until 4pm and then I don’t eat after 8pm...I do it like 4 days a week...and the in between days I have like 6 small snacks/meals throughout the day...I’m down 80 lbs and kept it off for the last 3 years doing that.
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« Reply #39 on: August 31, 2019, 12:18:45 PM »
That's wonderful courage. It would be great to be able to interact and support each other in a positive way taking our minds off of our mlcer spouse's once in a while GAL. Thanks for the input.

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« Reply #40 on: August 31, 2019, 01:10:23 PM »
I love eating healthy and sharing recipes!
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« Reply #41 on: August 31, 2019, 01:14:59 PM »
Finding joy,
  This seems like it will be a fun way to connect and share some good recipes.
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« Reply #42 on: August 31, 2019, 05:40:04 PM »
ST, I'm not sure if I mentioned before or not, but I am working on becoming a certified personal trainer and also a nutrition coach.  I've lived a healthy lifestyle most of my life, but while married had a much more difficult time with maintaining it... due in part to the stresses of that old life.

I've done various styles of nutrition to pair with my training and active lifestyle and the goals I have at each stage.  I would love to be able to help you and anyone else here who needs guidance to get their health and wellness back on track.  I know that plans are not one size fits all, and that each individual has specific goals that the best plan will be tailored to achieve.

Wishing you all the in your endeavors!

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« Reply #43 on: August 31, 2019, 05:45:35 PM »
Hi Stand Tall

You can start a thread to discuss healthy eating/weightloss and recipes...go to the tab New Topic then set it as Off topic for both the Help and Message Icon and in the subject create a few words as to what the thread is about.

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« Reply #44 on: August 31, 2019, 07:06:47 PM »
Beyond Blessed,

  Thank you so much for the offer. Your knowledge will be a great help to us and I'm sure to you for your future plans. With the help of xyzcf I was able to start an off topic page in the community and would love to have yours and everyone who is interested input.

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  Thanks so much for your help in getting this started. It's all set up in the community now.

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« Reply #45 on: August 31, 2019, 07:37:23 PM »
You are welcome. I am interested to see what people contribute.

I spent years in community health (health education and prevention) and am very interested in people taking responsiblity for their health. So many things can be done...so thanks for starting that topic!

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« Reply #46 on: September 01, 2019, 08:32:21 AM »
xyzcf,

  I am also very interested to see what people talk about. It will take somes minds off of their situation and put it back on themselves for a bit. We all know that when we can lose weight it makes us proud of ourselves and builds self esteem. I feel its a perfect start when you don't know where to start to GAL.

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« Reply #47 on: September 03, 2019, 08:02:54 AM »
So, I got an email from H yesterday evening letting me know that he is back in town from his party weekend with friends in his motorcycle club. Telling me he had an awesome time. <--This is the exact some thing I said to him when he asked how my 4th of July was.  ;). He doesn't use the word "awesome". Anyway, he asked when I would be able to get together and get these papers signed for the bank. He talked it like it was a dire emergency and needed to be done like yesterday. I responded back a hour later telling him that I could meet up today and to let me know where and what time. I've now heard nothing. Could it be that I was to nice in my response telling him that I was looking forward to seeing him? Sometime I wonder if the ow watches to close. :o Is this normal? This in a hurry and then when he is about to get what he wants he goes cold, ducks back in the tunnel? At this rate these papers will never get signed.  ::)

Just continuing on as if nothing is happening cause its really not my problem.

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« Reply #49 on: September 03, 2019, 09:40:38 PM »
  So, long story short. He sent an email late this morning and we did meet up at the bank. When he came into the bank I reach out to hug him and he bent right in and gave me a really good hug with his head next to mine. Then he sat in the chair next to me. Six months ago he would have sat on the other side of the room.

He then took the documents out of the envelope and I noticed that there were 12 pages. The copy he emailed me only had 8 pages. The notary came up to us asking if we were ready. I said I'm noticing that there are 12 pages and I only saw 8. Can someone explain the other pages to me before I sign. Notary said no. She said that they sent two copies so that we could each have a copy, but that I could certainly take a copy and get advice from a lawyer. I could just see the anger boil up in him. So, I said I'm not going to be able to sign anything that I haven't read. H said oh no, we are here now and it needs to get signed. Then he handed me to other documents so that I could read them and the notary was going to call the underwriter so I could talk to her. Thing was I had talked to his bank about this document about a week ago, so I already knew what it said.

  I read the pages while H fumbled with the documents trying to get them organized by number. You know, it took him 25 minutes to put the pages in numerical order. Notary kept looking at me and rolling her eyes and making confused faces at me. H was not able to put the pages in order. I just sat there patiently.

  While the notary was doing her thing I noticed a bowl of dumdum's (lolly pops) sitting on the desk in front of me. I took one out and handed it to H. In the past anytime someone had candy on their desk I would always give H one. Well, he took the dumdum and unwrapped it and put it in his mouth. I thought to myself that nothing has changed. He's just a little boy at heart.

  So, the documents got signed and we went outside and started talking. He asked about me living upstairs. I told him that I was going to be. He said the people that were going to rent it backed out because they wanted the whole house. I don't believe that he ever had a renter. He asked if I was going to be paying part of the utilities and I said that is something I would work out with the renters. He said he didn't think it was fair that he has been paying $1000 a month and that I haven't paid anything. In my head I'm thinking "It's cheaper to keep her" and "not my problem" I then said I don't take any spousal support from him and that I am entitled to it. That I figured that it was a draw.:) I started looking around for my tiny sympathy violin. ;D He said a few more whiny things then he says I was hoping to come home at some point. I said then come home. I said you're paying the mortgage so come home. I said you can live downstairs. I said I won't be there much, probably only on the weekends. He then said something about we are each doing our own things now and I said yup.

  I then brought up the subject of my S being a property manager and we could have him manage the house and it would be done through the real estate company that he works with. I said it would be done professionally, but that I would want to be on the contract because If an emergency comes up he (S) would need answers right away. H agreed and told me to have my S get up with him.

  He said he needed to get the truck, that he was driving, back and had to go and he gave me a big hug. I said oh hang on I have something for you. I reached in my pocket and pulled out a small pocket knife that was given to him from a friend. We talked about 5 more minutes and he said I gotta get going and gave me another big hug and we parted.

  Ok, No expectations on him cooperating with the rental agreement. The words about coming home are just words right now. It was just a small hole in the dam as Shocks Sis would say.

  I'm continuing on with moving forward and making plans for me. On my way home I stopped the the local VFW to get information on joining the auxiliary. I have always wanted to volunteer my time helping our Veterans and it is now time for me to step forward with this. With this group I will meet my own friends. Do my own thing and be doing things that will make me happy.

  Such a good day for me. I could see my strength, the old me, the one that H knew and fell in love with. I truly feel like I'm back and I could feel him drawn to it.

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« Reply #50 on: September 04, 2019, 12:30:25 AM »
Well done, Stand - definitely 1000 LBS points  ;)
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« Reply #51 on: September 04, 2019, 12:54:43 AM »
Go you!

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Re: They just don't understand 3
« Reply #52 on: September 04, 2019, 07:49:19 AM »
Thanks Treasur and UM,

  In the past I would have scooped up the papers from him and got them organized. This time I just let him do it however long it took. Its really huge on his part that he was able to initiate and deliver this contract all by himself. He said he did it all over the phone. It was a good sign of change to me.

  I went to my email this morning as I was going to email him telling him that I was proud of him for saving the house from foreclosure,  but the emails from our conversation about meeting up are gone. It now appears like a pretty cut and dry conversation between us. This was not something he needed to hid from me. I guess me telling him that I was looking forward to seeing him wouldn't be something he would want the ow to see.  ;D There have been a few other signs that things have changed in la la land.

  I will keep moving forward, but watching from afar.

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« Reply #53 on: September 04, 2019, 06:07:45 PM »
There was one other thing that happened that I forgot to mention. When sitting at the desk the notary said something to H about the papers and he pointed at me and said "who my wi..." and stopped his words real quick. I thought to myself "go ahead H, you can say wife." It made me chuckle inside.

  All I can say is following the advice and reading everything you can and not just once, but read it all over again every few months really helps get us to the right side of this crisis. I feel like I am always a few steps ahead of H because I read to understand.

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« Reply #54 on: September 05, 2019, 02:25:01 AM »
Yeah Stand, I hear you... I am waiting for the day when I hear my xW have to introduce me as her xH.... I have the feeling it will be harder for her to say than me to hear....
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« Reply #55 on: September 06, 2019, 11:32:05 AM »
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  I pray the day comes that she is standing in front of you with apology in her eyes. At that moment no words from her will be necessary. You will know.
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« Reply #56 on: September 06, 2019, 04:51:38 PM »
  So, it seems we may have another MLCer H in the housewives shows. This time it is in the Dallas women. Seems some of the women on the show claim that D'Andra Simmons H is going through a MLC. I will be keeping my eye on it to see how this goes.  ;)

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« Reply #57 on: September 08, 2019, 10:04:15 PM »
Forget my last post. I seems that the show will be celebrating one of the cast members 50th birthday with a MLCer party. Again, making all this just a joke. Well, I'm not laughing.

  Had an interesting weekend. On saturday I had all my kids and their spouses come over for a cookout. We are celebrating S32 birthday and sending S30 off to a job for an extended amount of time. We won't see him again until Christmas and he leaves after the new year for another 3 months. He's making the money. $$$

  So, while talking with S30, of course H came up, S said something about H being dropped off at his job by ow. I asked S if she still worked there and everyone around the table looked at each other in an odd way. I could tell they are keeping something from me. Then after everyone went home I got a message from an old friend to come out with her and her boyfriend. It's been months since I've been out, so I decided to go. Again, talking about H and the same thing happened. They looked at each other like they know something and they don't want to tell me. First they don't believe in a MLC, which is ok. They really don't know my H, so why would any of this be odd to them. Now it has me curious. We all know that a MLCer can get into some really odd situations and to not be surprised at what we hear. I would love to know what it is. Whatever it is its his to deal with, but wouldn't it be interesting to be a fly on the wall?  ;)

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« Reply #58 on: September 10, 2019, 07:06:06 PM »
  I'm looking for a little advice. A girlfriend asked me to go to a party with her and my old friends at the end of the month. This is going to be big with live bands, lots of food and its in the country, on land. So my thing is I want to go, but I know H will be there with the wh^re.

  The people that I would like to see I haven't seen in 18 months. I can go and just ignore H and his female pound puppy. I just want to go have a good time to close out the summer. BIL tells me to go. He says its time to take all my power back. I should not let my H, his B, control where I can go.

  Is something like this not a good idea to attend? Should I avoid places that I know H may be at? What do y'all think? I feel I should carry on life as usual and let him worry about his issue and ow.

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« Reply #59 on: September 10, 2019, 11:04:16 PM »
I think if you feel you can probably cope, you should do.
Have a plan b and a supportive friend in case you find at the time you can't...but yes, not your shame to avoid so put on your party power shoes if you can and go.  ;)
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« Reply #60 on: September 11, 2019, 07:42:08 AM »
Stand, do you think you can do this emotionally?  Maybe practice in the mirror--how will you react if you see the two of them together?  It is all about protecting you at this point.  And if you go, hold up your head and look fabulous. 
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« Reply #61 on: September 11, 2019, 08:54:42 AM »
Treasur and Maleficent,

  Thank you so much for your words. I know I will be ok seeing them and oh damn straight I will hold my head up high. This party will have a couple hundred people attending, so I won't have to be around them and after the last time I saw H and the way he acted around me and the things he said I'm pretty sure ow's days are numbered. If he and I talk I will be nothing but sweet. Heck, maybe it will give the two of them something to talk about all night.  ;)

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« Reply #62 on: September 11, 2019, 09:00:33 AM »
Well, my dear, better make sure you have such a good time that they have plenty to talk about lol
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« Reply #63 on: September 11, 2019, 11:52:55 AM »
  Emotionally I don't worry about. Who the ow is to me is like a pimple on my face. Annoying and short lived. Like I said in another post I have my strength back and then some. I truly feel H has started making the turn towards the light and I could feel his attraction towards me. That also gave me strength. The biggest thing is I'm not going to see him. I miss the women that I use to hang around and would love to see them. Me showing up there shows courage and lets people know that I have nothing to be ashamed of.  I won't be the one that will look like a fool. I just want to have some fun.

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« Reply #64 on: September 12, 2019, 04:02:48 AM »
  Emotionally I don't worry about. Who the ow is to me is like a pimple on my face. Annoying and short lived. Like I said in another post I have my strength back and then some. I truly feel H has started making the turn towards the light and I could feel his attraction towards me. That also gave me strength. The biggest thing is I'm not going to see him. I miss the women that I use to hang around and would love to see them. Me showing up there shows courage and lets people know that I have nothing to be ashamed of.  I won't be the one that will look like a fool. I just want to have some fun.

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« Reply #65 on: September 12, 2019, 05:46:52 AM »
Thank you UM,

  The old friends who use to see me as a shy introvert will now see the new improved me, the happy, out going, loving my life woman. I truly can say that I'm loving my journey and I'm living like he is never coming back.

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« Reply #66 on: September 13, 2019, 10:19:09 PM »
  ok, so I have a question. Does anyone have any good suggestions on how to overcome procrastination? I always have a whole list of things I want to get done, but then I just don't do them. Is this a form of depression? I use to not be this way, but the past 5 to 10 years I have completely gone down. I think this is a consequence of the actions of living with a chaos kid. I just gave up. Now I'm stuck this way. Ahh, this mirror work... ?
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« Reply #67 on: September 15, 2019, 03:44:10 AM »
We all get stuck at times Stand, after what we go through, it's hardly surprising.

Make a new list, a shorter one with the easy to do stuff on top.  If you get a couple of the things done in one day, make a new list the next with the stuff you haven't done and a couple of new ones.  Once you start to cross things off the list you will feel empowered and give yourself a pat on the back.

The next list after that will be easier.  Rome wasn't built in a day ;)
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« Reply #68 on: September 15, 2019, 05:40:45 AM »
Well, some advice from the Queen of Avoidance here...

Sometimes little mind tricks can help...say you will do two easy things or set a timer for 45 minutes...often you just need to trick yourself over a kind of procrastination speed bump and once you do, you're fine. Some people find being really structured about their time works although it doesn't for me. Some find doing a thing you're avoiding then rewarding yourself with a thing you want to do can help too.

I have also found that some times of day are more productive for me. And if I have a bad day, to remind myself that I can start afresh tomorrow. It is also helpful to prioritise the 'wolves closest to the sled' as UM calls them and sometimes doing so can show you that your list is too long!

However if it is stickier than that, you might need to have a thinky walk and figure out what the feelings are behind the procrastination. Usually some kind of fear but can have slightly different flavours...self-doubt, anxiety making decisions difficult, fear of failure or being judged, trying to be perfect, not caring about yourself enough. Procrastination is really just a kind of Avoidance and Avoidance is always about trying to stay away from risk or pain....if you can get a sniff at what sits behind it, I've found I can sometimes come up with a scenic route or a more positive motivation.

If it is REALLY sticky and about more than just what you do but more of a kind of dark heavy cloud that seems to affect nearly everything? Including how you feel about yourself? Yup, that it more like depression and needs tackling like that. Basic self care helps. Physical activity like walking helps. Or if those basics don't cut it, some folks find a short period of anti depressants can be helpful. Jmo.
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« Reply #69 on: September 15, 2019, 08:18:33 AM »
Sf,

  Making a list was a piece of advice my dad gave me. That does help some.

Treasur,

  I am starting to believe that I do have a bit of depression. Not surprising though given the circumstances. Some of the things I have been putting off getting done are my cars. I need to get them inspected and I have a fear of getting rejected. I think I'm worried that there will end up being a large cost and I won't have the money for it. Plan is to get one done tomorrow. I've done the work it needed to pass, so we will see in the morning.

  Another thing that I have been putting off is my house. I need to get over there and get it all packed out and cleaned so it can be rented. If you knew the history of the last 10 years with my H then it would make sense to you. You see H always had a thing about anyone taking control of "HIS" money even if it was to pay the household bills. He had to be the one that did that. Problem was he couldn't manage the bills and we constantly had the power shut off, the water shut off and we had been evicted or foreclosed on 3 times or lived in a motel basically homeless because of this. When I look back and now knowing the signs of MLC I see that he was slowing going into his crisis for the last 10 years. Not sure if they can fight off the crisis, but that is what it seemed like he was doing.

  Losing jobs, not paying bills, changing of the wardrobe, running away from home and returning a few day later, flirting with women and right in front of me and the increase of alcohol consumption. BD ILYBINILWY 3 years ago and then again 18 months ago and he left to live with the ow. I don't look at the timelines of MLC. My H has been all over the place with them. I'm looking at how he has changed. His maturity and his ability to get the things done that he needs to like paying his bills. He is not doing a very good job at all of it yet, but when he came to me with paperwork of modifying the home loan and saving our current house from foreclosure I was impressed. He did this all by himself and all over the phone. This was a big sign of improvement for me. Then him saying that he hopes to come home at some point has really made me see improvements and hugging me 3 times, two of them he initiated. Well then, we have a new ball game.

  So, parts of me has been putting off getting the house prepared for rent due to the feeling of losing another house and going back to the feeling of homelessness, that's the depression, the other part is just pure procrastination. Its a double edge sword.

  On the other hand I will be moving my stuff upstairs to the smaller apartment. I'm actually looking forward to having and decorating my own place. Because of losing so many homes I never decorated or even unpacked all my things at the other homes. Never hung pictures or painted. I'm kind of excited about it. Maybe I should see this apartment as my reward for getting house cleaned out.

  One of the thing H complained about at BD was not being able to do this anymore and he pointed to unpacked boxes. My thought was "its not like you have ever helped unpack" But maybe he couldn't because the stress was to much for him. Both of us stressed, both of us depressed and one of us in MLC. wow, light bulb moment. So H needed me to be his strength, but I couldn't at the time and she (ow) could.

  I need to pull myself together. Find my strength and wake up. One day at a time, One hour at a time and one task at a time. I am...

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« Reply #70 on: September 15, 2019, 09:34:53 AM »
Stand,

I am working on my procrastination memories....
Interesting, I’ve have learned something....it can be FOO issues. If you ever had the parent that constantly moved the goal post, especially at the end of the task. If you don’t learn to stop and appreciate and award yourself the accomplishment at the end of the task. If your thought process about the task isn’t how it will bring value to you or your life....

All these things increase procrastination. And figuring out which one hinders us often can stop it.

Anyways...I hope it helps. 😊
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« Reply #71 on: September 15, 2019, 09:44:41 AM »
Thanks courage

  I feel as if I'm right on the edge of something from my past that is about to be opened up to me. Mirror work.  I will add your thoughts to my thinking and try and look deeper into this. Something keeps bringing me to my first marriage as well as my current situation. Maybe not feeling appreciated my whole life. I do need to start rewarding myself though.

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« Reply #72 on: September 15, 2019, 10:06:06 AM »
Stand,

Ohhhhhh I KNOW THAT ONE!

Not good enough.

That’s the one, that’s the thing....the ephemeral unobtainable feeling of accomplishment.....when the things you do don’t get the response you were expecting....BECAUSE YOU WEREN’T DOING IT FOR YOURSELF! 🤦‍♀️

If I do something for myself, even if it is for another person the reward cannot be their response....because I can’t control their response....the reward has to be internal for me.....

I am measuring the worth of my work by the response of others....not how I feel about it.

So then I shame myself....it’s me, I couldn’t make another person respond in the hallmark commercial overflowing appreciation reel that I had imagined in my mind....so I failed.  I shame myself as a failure. I decide that no matter how good the outcome it’s all bad....because I’m measuring with the wrong sort of yardstick.

Yes!

Two minds are definitely better than one for my mirror work! Thank you!!!!
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« Reply #73 on: September 15, 2019, 12:03:01 PM »
  So, I've decided that, for now, I'm going to take things real slow. One thing at a time. Not a list of things because that seems to be overwhelming me. A bigger list is causing anxiety and stress.

  In the big picture renting the house is not losing the house and I can always move back in one day or maybe i can just stay in the apartment having the mortgage and the majority of the utilities paid for.

  So for now it's going to be one thing at a time. Let's see how this goes.
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