[FaithWalker]

Xy, I totally understand.  We lost our beloved yorkie a few years ago and the kids are constantly trying to get me to get a new dog.  I definitely don't feel like I can replace my old beloved one, and, like you, I want to travel, and the kids are almost out of the house.  It wouldn't make sense.

[in it]

So sorry XY your beloved furbaby had the best life with you. I hope you get to spend some time with your family.

[xyzcf]

My sister died this morning. She had been in hospital since Saturday/Sunday morning actually. She had been sick for many many years. My family, all my family live in Canada and I am not "allowed" into my homeland  unless I quarantine for 14 days....so I could not go and say goodbye, and I cannot be with my family to grieve this very big loss.

I do understand why the restrictions are there..even though I am vaccinated, they cannot make "exceptions"..but she was my big sister, the one who I talked to at least 5 times a week, the one who supported me over the last 12 years...and now there is just my brother and I...and that's hard for me to understand...we once were a family of 5 and now we are just two.

I am numb/sad/heartbroken and I just want to be with my family.

I last saw her in June 2019....almost 2 years ago....I last saw my daughter in February 2020.

I feel lost, empty, unsure if the future will ever turn "better" yet I know it will.

I just wanted to let you know...we are a "family" of sorts and have shared much of our lives outside of MLC as well.

[Milly]

Dear xy, I'm so very sorry. I'm sorry you have lost your big sister who you would speak to 5 times a week. I'm sorry you weren't able to see her. I'm sorry you feel so alone. Your loss would be hard enough without this difficult moment we are all living through making you particularly isolated. I'm glad you came here to tell us. We are here for each other, and although we've never met, we have a bond. Sending you a very loving embrace. x

[Curiosity]

xyz, I am so very sorry for your loss. It has been a time of far too much loss, with the pandemic isolation and that particular isolation of MLC that too many people don’t really understand. Having a support system like your sister was for you, that is such a valuable, essential part of surviving the roller coaster of early MLC and I am sure her support went a long way toward improving the quality of your life even after the shock was no longer so acute.

I know that there is no substitute for the physical presence of your loved ones around you, and I am truly sorry that the times we’re living in have kept that from you. Please know that my thoughts are with you, as I’m sure is true for many here, and I hope there is at least some measure of comfort to be found in that knowledge.

[Believer]

xyzcf,

I’m so deeply sorry for your loss. She was clearly so loved, valued and respected by you.
I’m also sorry you aren’t able to be home with your family due to the restrictions. It intensifies an already difficult time in your life.

Big hugs,
Believer

[Trustandlove]

I'm so sorry, xy.  This loss on top of all the other losses is a huge cross to bear.  And intensified when you are denied being able to go to be with your family, to process the grief together.  I know what family means to you.  Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers.

[Songanddance]

Oh XY - I am so sorry to hear this and can only send you the hugest hugs from across the pond. 

It is heartbreaking to lose a sibling but to lose one who you cannot see/visit/cherish and more importantly cannot share the grieving with the family; that grief must be immense and painful.

We on here are a family for the most bizarre reasons and so we are here for you - take care and allow yourself time to grieve and time to remember all the wonderful times you had as a family.

[Treasur]

I am so sorry for your new loss, xyz. May God hold you close through this terrible time. You are in my prayers.

[Thunder]

Oh xyzcf I am very saddened to hear about your sisters passing.  I know this has to be very painful for you.  I have sisters.

Sending love and prayers to you and your family.  I hope you can all get together soon.

{{Big warm hug}}