[Watcher]

So we just finished 6 visits in a 2 month span which is a lot for us. She attended her 4th marathon with me. She had a good laugh because sometimes I text her at a certain mile and tell her how this is absolutely my last one.

I have finished 16 marathons now with Dublin up next. Idk how many more I have left in me. I have 3 scheduled for 2027 and then I will start to downsize. Maybe one a year and at some point just 5k's. I'm tired of the constant training since 2022. Running got me through this life.

We went food shopping together and it was so nice. We have been slowing things down a bit. We have tended to always pack an adventure into our day so maybe we are trying more mundane activities now.

She is a very good cook and it was nice sitting in her kitchen. She always amazes me. I find her to be so knowledgeable. I love asking her questions and listening to her answers.

She does not ask for help. I think she is stubborn. So at her house yesterday we did landscaping together and it felt so good. I told her I have been waiting years for a woman to need me again. I crave to be needed by her. I think she is softening to the idea.

I told her we could tackle another project when I see her over Thanksgiving for 10 days. So now we have basically a 5 week break. I'm leaving for Dublin soon for 2 weeks.

Idk I think we both could use the breather to recharge and think about what has happened over the past couple of months. Yes I worry at times I have applied to much pressure on her. She says I haven't.

Our trajectory is so funny to me. I was thinking today how she asked me out in 2022. She was ready for me. Idk if I was ready for her yet. Idk if I ever was going to be ready for her. She had the courage that I lacked. She had the strength that I lacked. I trusted her so I said yes. Of course I was nervous. She was a woman lol.

Saying yes that day was absolutely the best decision I have ever made. She is absolutely my best friend in this life. I want to spend the rest of my days with her.

So flash forward to 2026 and I proposed to her. I was ready for her this time and idk if she was necessarily ready for me yet lol.

I would love to live with her and see her everyday. Do things for her. Partner together. Cook together. We have our talking and laughing sessions where it is just us. Shut out from the world. Our communication is incredible.

We will live separately when I arrive. It helps me acclimate to my new job and new area while also giving us some distance as our time together will significantly increase.

She absolutely does not scare me. I want it all. The good and the bad. Every imperfection and scar. I want to protect her heart. Feed her soul. Keep her intrigued and always make her laugh.