Thanks all. I hope that helps some out there decide to take control and admit they need help.
For me, 5HTP has been wonderful. It's not making me joyful and singing happy, but takes the edge off and allows me to sleep soundly. I was taking St. John's wort with it but got ill. Probably some sort of interaction between them. Some sources say not to combine them and some say it's fine.
I was afraid to take ADs because I'm so sensitive and for some, they cause thoughts of suicide. So, I decided to go the natural route... and I've never before considered it. I'm someone who does everything naturally and organically, with herbs, etc. So, for those of you out there unsure, please consider doing it. Take either ADs or start with supplements.
PS. I know of one neurologist who recommends 5HTP over ADs -= and that's how I decided to try it first. It's worked for me. You can order it from vitacost and I'm using Solaray, since it's standardized. About $10 for a 20 day supply, if you take it three times a day as I do.
Please get the help of a physician before trying any drugs, natural or otherwise. There are side effects to everything, even gentle herbs. And if you're taking any other drugs or supplements, they may interact.