[R]

Just came on my iPod - can't believe it as I used to play this a lot!! Beverley Knight "Soul Survivor" (feat. Chaka Khan)

There's a time and place for change
Ain't too many things that stay the same..
I've been there through every phase
Seasons come and go, but I remain
I'm the one who holds the cards
Every hand I play I raise the stakes
Doubters wonder from afar
How I leave 'em trailing in my wake

I'm a Soul Survivor
I'm a Soul Revivor
Bv's we came, we saw we won
It's far from done
And time will heal the pain
The road is long
It gets you down
But we will do it all again.

Where's the man to quantify
Everything I'm worth and who I am?
He should look me in the eye
Tell me where he figures in my plan...!
There ain't nobody gonna make me stop
Turn the lock, rip me off
'Cuz I'm right where I should be
And can't nobody ever hold me back
Change the tack, make me slack
You can't find another "Me".

I'm a Soul Survivor
I'm a Soul Revivor
Bv's we came, we saw we won
It's far from done
And time will heal the pain
The road is long
It gets you down
But we will do it all again.

Never underestimate
All the strength that lives inside of you
I am here to demonstrate
What no ordinary mind can do

I'm a Soul Survivor
I'm a Soul Revivor
Bv's we came, we saw we won
It's far from done
And time will heal the pain
The road is long
It gets you down
But we will do it all again

[R]

Just saw the lyrics for this and thought how appropriate - might make it BN's ringtone... 
ou're a troublemaker
You're a troublemaker...
You ain't nothing but a troublemaker, girl

You had me hooked again from the minute you sat down
The way you bite your lip got my head spinnin' around
After a drink or two I was putty in your hands
I don't know if I have the strength to stand, oh oh oh...

Trouble troublemaker, yeah
That's your middle name, oh oh oh...
I know you're no good but you're stuck in my brain
And I wanna know...

Why does it feel so good but hurt so bad, oh oh oh?
My mind keeps saying,
"Run as fast as you can."
I say, "I'm done," but then you pull me back, oh oh oh...
I swear you're giving me a heart attack
Troublemaker!

It's like you're always there in the corners of my mind
I see your silhouette every time I close my eyes
There must be poison in those finger tips of yours
'Cause I keep comin' back again for more, oh oh oh...

Trouble troublemaker, yeah
That's your middle name, oh oh oh...
I know you're no good but you're stuck in my brain
And I wanna know...

Why does it feel so good but hurt so bad, oh oh oh?
My mind keeps saying,
"Run as fast as you can."
I say, "I'm done," but then you pull me back, oh oh oh...
I swear you're giving me a heart attack
Troublemaker

Why does it feel so good but hurt so bad, oh oh (hurt so bad)?
My mind keeps saying,
"Run as fast as you can."
Troublemaker
I say, "I'm done," but then you pull me back, oh oh oh...
I swear you're giving me a heart attack
Troublemaker

Maybe I'm insane
'Cause I keep doing the same damn thing
Thinking one day we gon' change
But you know just how to work that back
And make me forget my name
What the hell you do I won't remember
I'll be gone until November
And you'll show up again next summer, yeah!
Typical middle name is Prada
Fit you like a glove, girl
I'm sick of the drama
You're a troublemaker
But damn girl it's like I love the trouble
And I can't even explain why
(Yeah!)

Why does it feel so good but hurt so bad, oh oh oh?
My mind keeps saying,
"Run as fast as you can."
Troublemaker
I say, "I'm done," but then you pull me back, oh oh oh...
I swear you're giving me a heart attack
Troublemaker

Why does it feel so good but hurt so bad, oh oh oh?
(And I can't even explain why)
My mind keeps saying,
"Run as fast as you can."
Troublemaker
I say, "I'm done," but then you pull me back, oh oh oh...
I swear you're giving me a heart attack
Troublemaker

[CrazyTrain]

This is my song today.   

Familiar Taste of Poison - Halestorm

Drink the wine, my darling, you said
Take your time, consume all of it
But the roses were only to drain my inspiration
The promises were spoiled before they left your lips and...

I breathe you in again
Just to feel you underneath my skin
Holding on to the sweet escape
Is always laced with a familiar taste of poison

I tell myself that you're no good for me
I wish you well, but desire never leaves
I could fight this til the end
But maybe I don't want to win

I breathe you in again
Just to feel you underneath my skin
Holding on to the sweet escape
Is always laced with a familiar taste of poison

I don't wanna be saved, I don't wanna be sober
I want you on my mind, in my dreams
Behind these eyes and I won't wake up
No not this time

I breathe you in again
Just to feel you underneath my skin
Holding on to the sweet escape
Is always laced with a familiar taste of poison

A familiar taste of poison

[Learning strength]

Love this thread, just found it! So lately I keep hearing the song WAKE ME UP- By AVICII.....wow I hear it and think this is what my H must be thinking!

"Wake Me Up"


 Feeling my way through the darkness
 Guided by a beating heart
 I can't tell where the journey will end
 But I know where to start
 
They tell me I'm too young to understand
 They say I'm caught up in a dream
 Well life will pass me by if I don't open up my eyes
 Well that's fine by me
 
[2x]
 So wake me up when it's all over
 When I'm wiser and I'm older
 All this time I was finding myself
 And I didn't know I was lost
 
I tried carrying the weight of the world
 But I only have two hands
 Hope I get the chance to travel the world
 But I don't have any plans
 
Wish that I could stay forever this young
 Not afraid to close my eyes
 Life's a game made for everyone
 And love is the prize
 
[2x]
 So wake me up when it's all over
 When I'm wiser and I'm older
 All this time I was finding myself
 And I didn't know I was lost
 
Didn't know I was lost
 I didn't know I was lost
 I didn't know I was lost
 I didn't know (didn't know, didn't know

[artsy2863]

Ok- I believe in signs and all of that. I took a yoga class this fall- there was a song in our playlist for the class that I could NOT get out of my head so I downloaded it onto my ipod-- a month later I got BD2- I do NOT think it was a coincidence, and this song describes perfectly what I feel right now. I highlighted the words that resonate with me. And, based on what my H has been telling me this weekend, it's how he's feeling, too. 

These Times (Safetysuit)

These times will try hard to define me
And I'll try to hold my head up high
But I've seen despair here from the inside
It's got a one track mind

And I have this feeling in my gut now
And I don't know what it is I'll find
Does anybody ever feel like
You're always one step behind

Now I'm sitting alone here in my bed
Waiting for an answer I don't know that I'll get
I cannot stand to look in the mirror
I'm failing
I'm telling you these times are hard
But they will

And I know there's someone out there somewhere
Who has it much worse than I do
But I have a dream inside, a perfect life
I'd give anything just to work
It's like I'm only trynna dig my way out
Of all these things I can't

And I am
Sitting alone here in my bed
I'm waiting for an answer I don't know that I'll get
I cannot stand to look in the mirror
I'm failing
I'm telling you these times are hard
But they will pass
They will pass
They will pass
These times are hard
But they will

These times will try hard to define me
But I will hold my head up high

Sitting alone here in my bed
Waiting for an answer I don't know that I'll get
I cannot stand to look in the mirror
I'm failing
I'm telling you these times are hard
But they will pass

And I know there's a reason
I just keep hoping it won't be long til I see it
And maybe if we throw up our hands and believe it!
I'm telling you these times are hard
But they will pass
They will pass
They will pass
These times are hard
But they will pass

[CrazyTrain]

Okay, here is another Kelly Clarkson song that fits the current situation so well.  I have bolded the part that stands out to me every time I hear this song. 

"Maybe"

I'm strong
But I break
I'm stubborn
And I make plenty of mistakes
Yeah I'm hard
And life with me is never easy
To figure out, to love
I'm jaded but oh so lovely
All you have to do is hold me
And you'll know and you'll see just how sweet it can be
If you'll trust me, love me, let me
Maybe, maybe

Someday
When we're at the same place
When we're on the same road
When it's OK to hold my hand
Without feeling lost
Without all the excuses
When it's just because you love me, you let me, you need me
Then maybe, maybe
All you have to do is hold me
And you'll know and you'll see just how sweet it can be
If you'll trust me, love me, let me
Maybe, maybe

I'm confusing as hell
I'm north and south
And I'll probably never have it all figured out
But what I know is I wasn't meant to walk this world without you
And I promise I'll try
Yeah I'm gonna try to give you every little part of me
Every single detail you missed with your eyes
Then maybe
Maybe, yeah maybe

One day
We'll meet again and you'll need me, you'll see me completely
Every little bit
Oh yeah maybe you'll love me, you'll love me then

I don't want to be tough
And I don't want to be proud
I don't need to be fixed and I certainly don't need to be found
I'm not lost
I need to be loved
I just need to be loved
I just want to be loved by you and I won't stop 'cause I believe
That maybe, yeah maybe
Maybe, yeah maybe

I should know better than to touch the fire twice
But I'm thinking maybe, yeah maybe you're mine

Maybe, love maybe

[Songanddance]

I heard this yesterday - Simply Red - Look in the Mirror.

"Your Mirror"


I've got to stand up for myself
 This society don't care about nobody else
 I've got to be strong
 Even if I know that this feeling is wrong
 I've got to not care
 Even if I know that this world is meant to
 Share

 Wait a minute. This is wrong
 Even the birds still sing their faithful song
 And your beauty lies within you
 Look in the mirror baby
 Look in the mirror baby

 What you gonna do when your friends have
 Gone away
 And deserted you
 You'll have to be strong
 24 hours can seem so long
 You're taught to not care
 And then not realise this world is meant to
 Share

 Wait a minute. It's wrong
 Even the birds still sing their faithful song
 And your beauty lies within you
 Look in the mirror baby
 Look in the mirror baby

 We've got to stand up for ourselves
 Even if a leader so cold wants to glory himself
 We've got to be strong
 Even if our reasons seem wrong
 We've got to not care
 Even if the world that we know may not even
 Be here

 Hold it! It's wrong
 Even the birds still sing their faithful song
 And your beauty lies within you
 Look in the mirror baby
 Look in the mirror baby

[Thunder]

Through the Ghost by Shinedown

Speak of the devil, look who just walked into the room.
The guilted and faded notion of someone I once knew.
All the perfect moments are wrong.
All the precious pieces are gone.
Everything that mattered is just a city of dust...covering both of us.

Did you hide yourself away?
I can't see you anymore.
Did you eclipsed another day?
I used to wake up to the color of your soul.
Did you hide yourself away?
Are you living through the ghost?
Did you finally find a place above the shadows
So, the world will never know...
The world will never know you like I do.

So many silent sorrows you'll never hear from again
And now that you lost tomorrow,
Is yesterday still a friend?
All the bridges we built were burned,
Not a single lesson was learned.
Everything that mattered is just a city a dust...covering both of us.

Did you hide you yourself away?
I can't see you anymore.
Did you eclipse another day?
I used to wake up to the color of your soul.
Did you hide yourself away?
Are you living through the ghost?
Did you finally find a place above the shadow
So, the world will never know...
The world will never know you...like I do.
Like I still do...

Did you hide yourself away?
I can't see you anymore.
Did you eclipse another day?
I used to wake up to the color of your soul.
Color of your soul...
Did you hide yourself away?
Are you living through the ghost?
Did you finally find a place above the shadow
So, the world will never know...
The world will never know you…

[patience.of.a.saint]

Right now, I like parts of what Miranda Lambert's song Mama's Broken Heart says. When I need a pick me up, I play this loud a couple times. It reminds me not to let him make me crazy, keep it together, and never let him see me cry. I can't do slow, sad songs right now, so this one works for me.

I cut my bangs with some rusty kitchen scissors
I screamed his name ‘til the neighbors called the cops
I numbed the pain at the expense of my liver
Don’t know what I did next, all I know I couldn’t stop

Word got around to the barflies and the baptists
My mama’s phone started ringin’ off the hook
I can hear her now sayin’ she ain’t gonna have it
Don’t matter how you feel, it only matters how you look

Go and fix your make up, girl, it’s just a break up
Run and hide your crazy and start actin’ like a lady
'Cause I raised you better, gotta keep it together
Even when you fall apart
But this ain’t my mama’s broken heart

Wish I could be just a little less dramatic
Like a Kennedy when Camelot went down in flames
Leave it to me to be holdin’ the matches
When the fire trucks show up and there’s nobody else to blame

Can’t get revenge and keep a spotless reputation
Sometimes revenge is a choice you gotta make
My mama came from a softer generation
Where you get a grip and bite your lip just to save a little face

Go and fix your make up, girl, it’s just a break up
Run and hide your crazy and start actin’ like a lady
'Cause I raised you better, gotta keep it together
Even when you fall apart
But this ain’t my mama’s broken heart

Powder your nose, paint your toes
Line your lips and keep 'em closed
Cross your legs, dot your eyes
And never let 'em see you cry

Go and fix your make up, well it’s just a break up
Run and hide your crazy and start actin’ like a lady
'Cause I raised you better, gotta keep it together
Even when you fall apart
But this ain’t my mama’s broken heart

[Songanddance]

Heard this as one of my students was practising a dance she had choreographed.

Jar Of Hearts lyrics by Christina Perri.
________________________________________
I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are


I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are

And it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?