[WarriorSprit]

Happy Easter everyone.

[newmamacrushed]

Happy Easter everyone!

Wow...how things can change so fast.  3 years ago on Easter Sunday I was given the hugest blessing.  My baby girl was born and we started our family.  It seriously was the happiest day of my life and the closest I had ever felt to H.  He was my rock through labor and delivery and was so excited to become a daddy.  He looked so proud of his family that day.  Last year was the first year that D and I were on our own for Easter and it was a sad day but we made it through.  Today, 21 months after BD, D and I had such a fun day together.  I've had a hint of sadness for missing my family unit but it definitely is getting better.  I looked around at church and the Easter egg hunt and saw families enjoying each other, but I was content today with just D.  I feel like I've come a long way so far.  H and I even texted each other pics of D. She went to an Easter egg hunt yesterday with him, OW with her 2 girls.  I sent him some of D at the hunt today.  It was really pleasant actually.  I sent one pic of D in her pretty Easter dress and he commented back "our little princess".  I haven't heard him use the word "our" for a very long time.  The divorce process has only been about "mine, mine, mine".  It's a nice change...even if it's only for today.

[Faith]

Happy Easter!  Today was the first time H had my girls for Easter without me.  He took them to see his family, and I spent the day with mine.  It seemed like the day went ok for them, until the ride home when H made the girls stop at the dive he's living in and listen to him read from a piece of paper all the days, holidays (complete with pickup & drop-off times) they're required to be with him.  He chose to end Easter by putting all the divorce detail garbage in their faces and they came home quiet and sad.  He hadn't seen D17 in two weeks, and I bet she won't see him now for at least two more.

So today I'm SO thankful for Jesus, his sacrifice, and his ability to comfort my kids and love them even more than I do!!!

[Stillpraying]

Yes, Happy easter to all.  It's Easter Monday holiday here and I'm enjoying spending time with the kids who are also in the middle of 2 weeks School holidays.  End of term 1 (We have 4 terms).

We had planned all along to go on the church family camp but I couldn't afford the deposit earlier on and then as time approached we lost interest and have stayed home.  It's been nice to get some things done on my list and to sleep in each morning.

2 years ago H picked a fight with me about meeting the neighbour and it ended up with him saying on Good Friday that he didn't want to eb married to me any more and then on Easter Sunday he stormed out of the house.  He returned later and I thought we were progressing with counselling but I had no idea about the other life he was leading behind my back.  Last Easter he had already left.  Today we are officially separated for one year exactly and therefore H is free to file for divorce as from tomorrow.  On last year's Easter Sunday I cut off my wedding ring.  It was 4 days after I found out about OW.

This Easter is so much better and now I can understand the pain Christ must have felt at the betrayal of these he thought loved him.  It does hurt more than physical pain.

So, a year on I am much stronger.  I look back on last Easter time and it's hard to describe but it felt surreal and like I was in dream (Nightmare) land.  It just felt weird.  Today I feel I have 2 feet firmly on the ground.  The kids are more settled.  The older 2 have come a long way and the younger 2 still need time to accept reality but they are progressing.

Hugs to all and extra hugs for those that need it at this time.
SP