Dreams are funny things. They can be deliciously capricious, weird, zany, meaningless. They can reflect anxieties, hopes, and fears. There are dreams we can discard, whether good or bad, as just a dream, and others that definitely reflect our inner psyche. There are things that come out in dreams that we have repressed during waking hours, and other dreams that help us to understand our problems.
Some people, like me, have vivid dreams when they're still awake. I'm not sure why some people do, but the quality of these dreams is definitely related to the emotions we are experiencing. When H first started the pre and post BD talks, these vivid dreams were dark and ominous (I have these very vivid semi dreams while lying next to him with my eyes shut). When his talk was kinder, I saw flowers and light. All very easy to explain
I also have dreams when the dead talk to me. My grandmothers. My father in law (who I never met). This are easy to understand too, without any paranormal explanation. although perhaps I'm wrong. I don't know why I dreamed about my father in law, who shook my hand, and said he wanted to pass a message onto his family.
And yet... since I was a child I have strange dreams that come true. These are not dejá vu brain shortcuts, but strange, intense dreams of the future. They feel different to normal dreams. I'm sometimes surprised by the dream, but not surprised when they come true. I've dreamed about finding jewelry in the street, then found it, about winning money, and then winning it really, about meeting someone I've never met, and then when I do meet them, they are exactly as I'd dreamed. I've dreamed about places before I've been there, to find they are like my dream and different to photos. I dreamed about H before I met him too.
Two days ago I dreamed about (ex) OW's mother, who used to be my friend, but got angry with me for "all the harm" I did to her daughter (!) I know the family is dysfunctional, OW is a narcissist, and Ow's mother is very fragile; she can't deal with reality and keeps up pretense to the outside world about a lot of things (which fools no one).
In the dream, (ex) OW's mother was coming towards me, smiling. Then yesterday, in a shopping centre in the city, I saw her, coming towards me, and smiling. Except when she saw me, her face froze, and she pretended not to see me. I felt so sorry for her. All I could see was someone who can't deal with her pain and with the world.
I don't know why this dream came, so unexpectedly, and so accurately.
Anyone who knows me knows that I'm not really into paranormal stuff. Yes, I do the iChing,
http://mlcforum.theherosspouse.com/index.php?topic=2652.msg165066#msg165066 but this is a way of accessing my own inner wisdom. I'm not religious, although I was brought up catholic. Although I think that everyone has the right to their own faith and choices, I prefer the self direction of Buddhism.
Yet despite my preferred rationality about the world, I have these strange dreams...