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« Reply #90 on: December 06, 2016, 11:26:29 AM »
It could be either.
The sadness could be linked to the realisation that her dreams in replay are shattered. It is as plausible as her pre mlc happiness.

Yes, it is so sad to read what she writes. I can feel the pain through the words.
Poor lady
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BD: 31st Dec 2012..Happy New Year!
"I want a new love, I want to take risks, I want a new relationship with the kids"...thanks, what's wrong with the one you had???

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Re: Authentic material from MLC'er blog
« Reply #91 on: January 27, 2017, 06:13:17 AM »
Tuesday, November 29, 2016
HOPE
 
"Thoughts are energy-
What we think produce similar energy. And in no time we sink in what we running from.

Solution: in small steps make brain to think positively.

This morning I start it with that, I walked over stacks of leafs on the street. Is not so much, but it is beginning. Smile is get back."


She were saying we sink from what we running from, it is escape and avoid and she trying desperately to avoid imminent collision with own shadow...
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Re: Authentic material from MLC'er blog
« Reply #92 on: January 27, 2017, 06:25:35 AM »
Monday, December 5, 2016
GREY

"Grey. Not like good grey, it is like:

bland, impersonal, boring, gloomy, pale, depressed, lonely, melancholy, quietly, usually, poor, lost, sad, apathetic, fake, lonely, anxious, aimlessly, fluid, ...

And I do not know could I count all of mine 50 shades of grey.

.. but every single day on each corner I am hit at leas with one of those - like exists thousand of them."


That is how she feels in life... Nobody wants to be there, for sure.

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Re: Authentic material from MLC'er blog
« Reply #93 on: January 27, 2017, 06:47:49 AM »
Sunday, December 18, 2016
Eh, women

"There exists approximately 3 square meters in life of each women and from that you know all. Bed. If women go to bed happy, that it is.
She can be happy at work, with kids, in society. Laugh whole day. But if there is shadow over her smile in moments when she feels once again just passed day, it is a sign that she missing something.

And now everyone who think it is a sex - shame on you.

I did not.

Only happy woman love sex. Without any shadow happy. She seeks you, allure you, want you and need you.

And those shadows are small everyday things, nonchalance, moments when you take them for grant, when you make her to be away from you. Day after day, those shadows become longer and darkness start to squeeze.

Each women wants and dream about something else. Equally each on them have own reasons for sadness. Maybe their desires are impossible or banal from  your point of view. Maybe you aren't man for her. Maybe...

Nevertheless, each of them have shadow which scream if something is not right. You just need to look... if you are hers, you will know it..."


What to say ? Is it fault of insensitive spouse ? Or wife who can't express emotions, on that way can't  connect with husband properly, and felt alone ? And she maybe thinks that I am not her soulmate, otherwise I would know whats bothering her even she does not know ? Projection of blame ? Projection of self in hands of other.  Other one suppose to make her happy ?

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Re: Authentic material from MLC'er blog
« Reply #94 on: January 27, 2017, 12:45:51 PM »
All of it albatross.!! But what if she never understands?  What then for you?
Relax - they have a Karma bus ticket to ride.

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« Reply #95 on: January 28, 2017, 08:43:03 AM »
All of it albatross.!! But what if she never understands?  What then for you?

Hello superdog, how are You ? Thank You for your comments. I was always fine, that is one of reasons why she pick me, unstable person needs stable person. I am fine with my life, always been, always am.

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Re: Authentic material from MLC'er blog
« Reply #96 on: January 28, 2017, 08:49:19 AM »
Sunday, January 1, 2017
It is New Year
"Life is good.


Do not believe to fool who say opposite. As one old song said: "... it is some kind bypass, just my daily paranoids..."

... it is just my perception of the moment. I stare in closed doors, and behind my back is window wide open."


So, she finally got it that something destructive in her make her to see things horrible... inner struggle.

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« Reply #97 on: January 28, 2017, 09:02:01 AM »
Thursday, January 5, 2017
THERAPY

"I should patent "my way", write book and become famous with successful technique of revival.   

Step 1: Open blog

Step 2: spill out only to you understandable state of own soul.

Step 3:  You come, read it, cry.

And then repeat infinitely step three. You come, read, cry... You come, read, cry... You come, read, cry...

And one day you come on blog, read it and do not cry. And then You are good.

I guarantee that. Always been like that. Everything pass, question is in how many repetitions ?

And for all side effects you know who you would ask."


How I see, she is fed up with self :D lol It is end of dark matter release - aka shadow material ?

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Re: Authentic material from MLC'er blog
« Reply #98 on: February 02, 2017, 11:46:23 AM »
Sunday, January 8, 2017
THE CORE

"When I look self in mirror, I am satisfied with that outer layer... 
And second layer is not bad.
On 7 th layer things are not so good, but the 6 th patch all holes.
Surprisingly, the second is compact, like first one.

But core.

The core is fuc*ed up."


She healing from outside to inside ? Or she avoid healing at all ?
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Re: Authentic material from MLC'er blog
« Reply #99 on: May 18, 2017, 09:46:43 AM »
Friday, January 13, 2017
I SAID ALL
 
"At least that seems like that. Who cares anyway what I have to say ? Even writing to self I have noting to add. Like lifetime wisdom could transfer in someone else head.Like my own wisdom can be stable ? Only changes are eternal, someone wiser said.
 
I read those 5 stages of grief and counting what I lost during the time. And which phases were longest, deeper and stronger, and what pass just like washing my face, look in the mirror and brief: "Let's move on". And then like some stupid freaked graph, I imagine my thoughts and I know that I am long time in all of those phases in same time and multiplied... Like I tie my hands when I try to resolve knot...

There is no any kind of resolving because I can sense more situations with new phases to mix them... and there is no any clearance...

I have desire to write...

...nor think...

... even less talk.

I am going again in shell. "
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