My version of ILYBNILWY:
-Me: Babe, what's going on; don't you love me anymore?
-Her: Honestly, I am just not feeling it!
-Me: WTF do you mean not "feeling it"?!?!
-Her: I have love for you; I just don't have those loving feelings I should have!
Other random sh!t from BD to now:
-I felt like this for years...since the beginning! (at BD.....all 21 years of marriage?!?!?!
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-I felt like this since D10 was born (about 2 months after BD. WTF...which is it?!?!?!
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-I felt trapped!
-I am so confused! (yeah....so am I!
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-I want to have those feelings for you, but I don't and don't know why! (has made this statement several times and still confirms this as a desire).
-Don't you want someone to reciprocate your love and affection? (Yeah...YOU!
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-We got married too young! (I was 23, she was 20...and we dated for over a year)
-We were never in love! (WTF was this then for 22 F**kin Years?!?!
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-You're a great guy and a great father; D10 loves you and she needs you! (Yeah....and you?
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-You are more like a brother or cousin to me!
-I recognize you as my Husband, close friend, and confidant, but not my lover!
-I am not leaving (after I told her I didn't want her to leave, but it was her choice and I wouldn't stop her)
-I almost left you!
-I almost told you to leave!
-Sometimes I feel like I need some space!
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I feel guilty about all this; but I can't help it! (I have gotten this one more than once!)
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It's not fair to you; but I can't help it! (same with this one)
-I feel better; but now your sad and
I feel guilty about it. (After she finally expressed her feelings on how she actually felt)
-What's wrong babe? I'm not just asking because
I feel guilty! (She would say this early after BD when I was still wearing my emotions)
-Sometimes I want you to let me go; but other/most of time I want you to hold on to me.
After discovery of EA:
-I can't believe I let my self get emotionally attached to another man;
but I needed it!-I know what I did was wrong and inappropriate;
but I needed it!-I am so sorry I did this baby;
but I needed it!(I'm not kidding; she actually made all three of those statements with the same "but I needed it" ending!)
-I feel lost again! (since she no longer has her "chat" buddy to lean on)
-Why do you (still) love me? (she felt I shouldn't because of her EA!)
-Her: I was trying, but I just couldn't feel that bond and connection to you.
-Me: No sh!t; that's because you let yourself get attached emotionally to someone else. (<---truth dart)
On having sex:
-You're the only one I want to have sex with, but, I only want the sex; no emotions attached! (WTF...married one-nighters?!?!?!?!
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-I said I don't want to have sex anymore! (really? this was less than a week after the above statement; she had hopped into bed naked, snuggling. This is her normal method of initiating so I went to reciprocate!)
-24 hours later she comes to bed again, same as above, then gets upset when I am hesitant to respond to her advances (WTF?!?!?!?!?!?!
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