I told my brother later today that I need to start looking at things differently. I look at those numbers and I see the 7 in my age group and the 188 overall who finished ahead of me without paying much attention to the 70 in my age group and over 1900 overall who finished behind me.
Yup, that's true, the looking differently. It's classic, isn't it, to look at the negs and not the positives. Even after I've read half a dozen books that tell me to remember the good stuff, I forget to do it. Some of us are ingrained with this stuff. We have to keeping fighting to build the mental muscle to go with the physical. Physically, you're great, MBIB. Now you can do similar with your once-broken (see what I did there?) brain....
Your pretty girl radar seems well and truly functioning. I would take that as a good sign.
Isn't it weird the massage helped the jaw? Didn't I tell you so? You're tense. That starts with the mental thing, too, of course.
I don't get how friendly your W is being given the D. Doesn't make sense. Anyone about to inflict a D on someone would not normally be normal. Just not possible. Guilt and human kindness sort of prevent it. Could you do it? I couldn't... So what is she up to? Compartmentalising like crazy, maybe.
Yet lately it's like it's all just amounted to this and to where l am at now , like nothing , nowhere , all wasted , not even happy.
This does resonate with me, sadly. And yet.... still we have to keep walking onwards. Running, in your case, Brain. Because tomorrow is always different. And new people come along, and new records get broken and the past does grow dimmer in the rearview mirror. Eventually it does. It just does. Never thought I'd say that.