I wondered what happened to this thread.
Now that my H is a vanisher and I don't even know his phone number, I often wonder what happened to the poop emoji keychain he made a deliberate trip upstairs to take on one of the last times he came over to the apartment we shared.
I had bought it for him just after BD. I didn't know what was going on and thought the whole thing would blow over. So me being me, I bought him the poop emoji keychain and told him, "Here, I saw this and thought of you."
In the past, he would have laughed. Since this was just after BD, he grunted and threw it to the side. It landed on his bedside table, where it sat for an entire year. I lived alone, he was gone, living at his mother's house, and I never touched it after he threw it aside. It actually grew a layer of dust over it.
About 3 weeks before I moved out of the apartment for good (meaning we would no longer have any shared home), he came over to retrieve a bookcase his dad had made. I made sure I wasn't there when he arrived. And when I got back, I saw that he had made a special trip upstairs to the bedroom and taken that keychain.
Funny this thread popped up again, because I just realized that the day he came and took it was exactly 2 years ago today. I do wonder if he still has that stupid keychain now that he's moved 1000 miles away and literally has an entirely new life. My guess is he left it behind at his mother's house, but who knows.
The desire to be loved is the last illusion. Give it up and you shall be free. ~ Margaret Atwood