[Stillpraying]

I had some dreams a number of months ago but they still stick in my mind as the feeling is still awful.

H is havig a birthday and I am in amongst a group of people.  He tells everyone he's going to the bar for drinks if everyone wants to join him.  I go outside and look into the bar and there is H with OW.  I feel so incredibly sad and shut out.  It's still the way I feel about him.  I'm still his wife but I am shut out of ever part of his life except for the kids.

There were a couple more with scenes like that.

Then recently I had a dream where H and I were together.  I can't remember everything in detail but it felt like we were trying to reconcile.  I know in the dream he had been away from us and was re-connecting with me but was struggling.

I'm 45 now and when I was nearly 19 a friend from church and school who I knew all my life, was killed in a car accident at age 19.  I had dreams for many years that she faked her death and was still alive.  I was happy she was alive but angry she'd deceived us and told her, did she know how much we grieved for her.  It still feels quite real as I write this.  Although I am certain she is in heaven now.
We only had a funeral servie for her and weren't invited to the spreading of ashes at her home.  It was the first time I never went to a grave site.  Always wondered if that had something to do with it.

Mostly in the recent months if there has been a male in my dream, it's been my dad and not my H.  Although my dad was not a very involved father.  One dream I am sitting in my dad's lap and resting into him.  I am an adult in that dream.

[StandandDeliver]

I had a dream where I was kicking the cr*p out of the OW and my H and they were not fighting back

Lol, yes, that is a cathartic dream alright!