[HeartsBlessing]

The Lord instructed me yesterday to come back a look for a thread that had my name in it; and here it was; I ran across this thread; and I came back today to post one last time....just so you know, I'm fine; but have been instructed to leave the board.

The meds I'm taking block my physical symptoms; but they do not block my spiritual gifts; and I cannot handle the pain and stress here; it renders me useless and unable to think straight..not to mention a burning pain in my chest; and a great deal of stress I don't need right now.

There are so many things written from the past in the archives; and there's not much more I can tell any of you; except to repeat things that I've said before.

I did go on Facebook and do a few little things; such as accept friend requests; but I don't stay long there, either.

I had written at one point that I was thinking of taking a break; and my physical condition has taken that decision from me....after being rendered useless twice in a week; I left. I won't be returning once I send this post.

It's hard to explain but the collective pain and stress of the people here gathered together; is hitting me like a ton of bricks that I cannot push off of me; I had tried detaching; but that didn't work, either.

The only solution is to get away from it all; and even now, as I type; my chest is burning like fire; and before I'm rendered useless again; I have something else to tell you.

Don't worry; God has me in His hands; like He always has had; and those of you who contain the gift of intuition have Him there with you; and He is all you need; you don't need me at all...you just THINK you do.

Look to HIM for all that you need; I was only someone He used to help/translate/break down this crisis into something that was more bearable; the understanding came from Him; along with the personal experience I had had in the past.

My belief in all of you still stands; there IS an end to this crisis/trial; and no matter what happens; you will ALL be just fine; and I know this within my own heart; I always knew.

Take care, all of you; and remember; the answers you seek are found with yourselves; you just have to learn to access those. 

I do still pray for all who are on the board; and I know I've been in your prayers; and I appreciate those; but it's time for me to bow out gracefully; and let others lead in my place; but not to walk in my shoes; I would never expect that of anyone.

Remember the place you came from; and help the others that come behind; it is the only way to help guide people through the place you've walked before.

May God blessings be upon all of you in this time of greatest need. 

Much love to you all,
HB

[With Gods Help!]

Awwwwwwwwww Hb i cried my eyes out reading that thankyou so much for your help, advice and 2x4's, i really hope you find peace in your heart and chest again..........GODBLESS you and your family xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[covenantkeeper]

HB,
If you come back just to read anything, I want to say thank you from the bottom of my heart. I knew a long time ago this had to have been hitting you hard. It always hits hardest for those who are using their spiritual gifts. You are no exception.

God has blessed you immensely and will continue to do so. You have sowed seeds that are reaping understanding and love and will continue to reap peace by leaps and bounds.

Yes, we will miss you, but your health and well being are way more important to us than that! And to be honest, there were times I just wanted to know your opinion or see if God was telling you the same thing He was telling me.  And when I would receive something from you it was more of a "yeah, that's what I thought, too" kind of thing.

Perhaps you will be able to check back sometime in the future to see those marriages that have been reconciled. You have a part in all of those.

I believe God has great things in store for you and your husband. I strongly believe He wants you to have rest and concentrate on you two as a couple. I believe He wants to bring your relationship closer together. It's time for the teacher to rest and hear from the Lord for herself.

Much love to you!

"The mind of the wise instructs his mouth, and adds learning and persuasiveness to his lips. Pleasant words are as a honeycomb, sweet to the mind and healing to the body. 

 Proverbs 16: 23-24

[limitless]

HB,
I guess this is like a Rite of Passage.
MLC is done and over for you.  It has been for some time.
I greatly appreciate all that you have written (for me and others). 
I certainly understand that it is time for you to let go and move on.
It's funny.  I never thought of myself as receiving "signs" or anything like that - yet - I thought that you would be or have already be leaving the board.  I had a sense of that just the other day.

We will miss you.  I hope that you stop in from time to time to check up on us and, hopefully, see all our progress.  If you aren't able to do so, I certainly will understand.

Take care of yourself and your family.

You have given so much hope to so many people.  I am so thankful for that.

Hugs,

L

[LettingGo]

I'm so glad for HB that she recognizes we will be ok without her guidance now... because ACTUALLY, we pass along her guidance to the newbies, just as she has taught us...

I agree with her that there are so many forum members who have learned the lessons well, that she can bow out knowing all is well in her stead. Another great Lady, Mary Kay Ash, the founder of Mary Kay Cosmetics said that if she taught her sales force well, and was willing to share what she knew, that she wouldn't have to worry about the company or what would happen after she passed on.... that she knew the principles would be practiced and THAT was the heart of the company. In that way, the heart of this forum is RCR, HB, Old Pilot and Stayed, who brought her experience a little later.

I'm feeling an aversion to the forum lately from what HB described as the overwhelming sorrow and the collective pain of the people that come here.... it's a lot to handle...so I understand her decision to break free from it. I believe that each of us will come to that conclusion in our own time... knowing we payed it forward.

Good luck, HB!!

[hyperglad]

Agreed LG although sad to see her go, and grateful for the wise words given to myself and many others there must come a time when you are done with this and the need to leave it behind is overwhelming..... lets hope we all get to that day sooner rather than later.

Goodbye HB and may your life be a happy one 

[limitless]

LG,
Just a quick note to you....
While I completely agree with EVERYTHING that you posted regarding HB.....
my post to YOU is please work on your aversion to this forum.
(i.e. you need to try to get over it).
Your story is not done.  You have really good insights (and 2 x 4's) for the LBS' here (ME ) who are going through this right now.
Now is not YOUR time.  (In case you were wondering).
For me, as I continue to learn my lessons and grow (and become patient and stop obsessing) and all those other things.......I plan to "Pay it Forward."
I remember how I felt when my H first left.  I never want to feel that way ever again.
And, if I can help someone else deal with that type of pain, I plan to.

Thanks, again, HB.
You taught everyone really well.  It's time to pass the baton.

L

[OldPilot]

Well this does sadden me with this news.
I have never said this on the public boards before but HB has been my mentor for about 18 months now.
I was honored enough to meet her one day about a year ago.
She is a very wise lady and I do agree with her that she has repeated much of what she has said to us many times.
We can re-read her over 2000 posts and glean that knowledge as it will be here as long as RCR keeps the board open.

I too have not been posting all that much recently as I have been continuing to have my own MLC problems.
I do still try to read most threads but it can be VERY overwhelming.
However I am available always by PM or on the alt.

We must continue to have faith that the MLC process will have their natural conclusions.

HB I know you said you are never returning but I still want to wish you the best and THANK YOU for being my friend and mentor!
Take care of yourself and know that we all do really LOVE you!

[xyzcf]

Thank you HB for your kindness and wisdom and love...and especially in sharing your faith with us. Thank you for your prayers.

May you regain your health and continue to explore and live life with enthusiasm and enjoyment...take care. xo

[LettingGo]

Laursecan, I'd LIKE to take a break from the forum, but unfortunately, I'm addicted! Sometimes I dread sitting down at my computer because I feel so down right now and don't have cheery words to share, LOL!! I know I have a lot more of my own story to journal, and I hope I get to share a happy ending, but in the meantime, I'm mostly reading other people's threads!

As you know, I'm encouraging physical meetups because I think they do us SO much good.... they really give us GAL and we can be ourselves and NOT have to "fake it 'til we make it" etc. How I wish I could visit SoCal again soon so we could sit on "someones" deck and drink a margarita or a beer together and watch the waves roll in.... that sounds so fantastic...

Thanks to HB for telling us we weren't crazy when we started feeling our intuition or getting "signs" from our angels/universe, LOL!! I believe with the positive attitudes of our "founders" this will be the BEST forum for LBS EVER.... we are truly a nice bunch of people!