[MadLuv]

I had to put my beautiful dog down today. I’m devastated. She was a completely healthy dog last week. She has been my light and love through all this and I can’t even imagine how these next weeks and months will be without her.  I should have had her for many more years. I will miss her beyond words.

I had to put down our other dog last year. I messaged my XH she was sick last week and today her passing. I did both by just sending my screen print from FB post. I also sent both bills as he  pays half her bills. I got no response. Not surprised.  Three months ago I told him I could not be his friend. He punishes by withholding communication. What I will say is that I told him when our other dog passed last year and I messaged him with no response that it was unbelievable to me. No “ thanks for letting me know”  so, what does he do? The same.

I am still amazed at the inability to do the slightest things a normal human would do. Not shocked however.  I will say that if I texted and said can you call me he would in seconds.  MLCers are quite subhuman. In 3 years I have lost my husband and both out dogs. Out life continues to just keep disappearing. I have never in my life not had a dog. As I was driving home today I said out loud. I dont have a dog?? I still can’t believe so much loss in such a short time.

[Reinventing]

So, so, sorry Madluv. So very painful.

[beyondblessed]

So very sorry for your loss, ML.  I lost my"baby" right after my D all those years ago, and that was even more difficult than watching xh fade away at that same time.  I did call him and he came to the vet, but left just as quickly.  However, in the end, he did pay the bill at least.  It is sad how robotic and inhuman they become.

  Just know that your beloved doggie is in a better place waiting for you and that things will come together, with brighter days ahead. It's moments like these that strengthen us and moves us further forward, as painful as it is at the time.

[MadLuv]

Thank you reinventing and BB for the puppy love 💔

[MadLuv]

I want to share an article I came across that I think most will relate and get something from.

The problem is, no matter how much you strive and how much you get, it’s never enough. It’s never sufficient to resolve that fundamental sense of lack and incompleteness that you feel at the core of your being.

A life spent seeking happiness and wholeness from a world that can never provide it is a life wasted.

The sorrows for such a soul are endless.

This compulsion to pursue objects in the hope of deriving happiness, freedom and wholeness from them is called samsara. The wheel of samsara is a never-ending cycle of lack, desire, attachment and suffering.

This is the basic suffering of humankind; a malady affecting virtually every human being on the planet.

Samsara is a case of false expectation; of misplaced seeking. Deluded by maya, the samsari seeks permanence in the world of the impermanent, fulfilment from the finite, and happiness from that which can only ever deliver it with an equal measure of sorrow.
Let’s explore how this happens.

https://www.unbrokenself.com/samsara/

[toomanytearss]

I’m so very sorry for the loss of your precious pup. I do understand.

Do you feel up to sharing about your pup?  I’d love to hear what breed and what their personality was. I know it helped me to talk about Buddy after he passed. To tell funny stories about his shenanigans and why he meant so much to me.

My heart goes out to you.

[xyzcf]

Madluv I am so sorry for your loss. These animals truly give us unconditional love, they know when we need some comfort and they endlessly give us love.

I rescued my last lab 1 1/2 years after BD and she passed 2 years ago. I miss her deeply. There was a connection between us that was deeper and more intense than my previous two labs. She never left my side. She stayed with me through some of the darkest moments of my life.

For the time being, I wish to travel and because I visit my daughter in Canada 4 times a year and often on holidays like Christmas...it was difficult to find someone to take care of my beauty...as she was also blind since age 5 and developed dementia the last year or so.

She will always be the special one...and perhaps I don't know how I would even find one that gave me so much and asked for so little.

My heart goes out to you in this latest loss. I am so sorry.

[Treasur]

I am very sorry for your loss too. Quite a few of us here remember losing pets who kept us upright during our darkest days. And each one is unique and irreplaceable. But it sounds as if you did the right and loving thing in the circumstances which I hope will be some small comfort to you.

[Nas]

I’m very sorry to hear about your dog, ML. It seems like they’re always gone too soon no matter how much time we get with them. I miss my dog still every day.

[Dragonfly33]

Madluv I am very sorry to hear about your dog. I know how painful it is as we lost our dogs as well years ago. Hugs to you Madluv.