[Broken Hearted]

I'm going to write this down before I forget it!
Dreamt that H and I made love and he was concerned that the OW would find out - I remember feeling superior to her then. Then I found out that he had just taken a train and left..... I managed to get on the train and he was sitting there with one of our joint friends (friend looked embarrassed about being with H) and a woman...... H saw me looking at her and said 'no, she's not my OW'...... I got the impression that he was laughing at me.

[Still]

My dream last night was that my H and I were sitting with a mutual friend. The friend asked my H what his goals were for his life. He listed many professional goals, remodeling goals, personal goals, and then he said, "Oh, and that me and Still get our marriage on track."

His statement actually woke me up from my sleep because it was so clearly his voice. The thing that was very odd about it was I remember in the dream thinking that those couldn't be his own words because the English was improper. My H is a college professor and never uses improper grammar. Is that weird?

[Mermaid]

His voice, but not his words?

The words you want to hear, then? But they are not coming from him?

[devestated]

I would say my dream is more of a nightmare coz that is how i feel everytime i have it and wake up shocked,sick and scared like a nightmare. Basically i dream about H having sex with the OW i dont think i am standing there watching it i can just see it happening.

[Still]

His voice, but not his words?

The words you want to hear, then? But they are not coming from him?

Mermaid,

That didn't occur to me, but it makes perfect sense.

[godspromises]

They are not his words yet, but they can be. The mind, including our dreams is the battlefield. Our fight is not physical, looks physical, feels physical, but it's spiritual. How else can spouses all over the world almost say and do the same thing during thus MLC, yet most of these WAS knew nothing if MLC prior.

Our dreams, IMHO, are used by both God and Satan. God is using them to encourage us to continue our stand, cause whether you will admit it or not, our stand is based on Gods desire for our family. Satan in turn uses our dreams to encourage us to give up, to suffer and be in anguish.

Some may feel this is not the platform for such a spiritual discussion. My response to that is in the 9 months that my W and I have been seperated, I have seen and heard so much in my marriage and the marriages all over the world to come to no other conclusion. I feel compelled to share the truth, to plant the seed and leave the rest to GOD.

If you find my beliefs objectionable, are you willing to consider them to save your marriage, to save your family???

[Still]

Godspromises,

I don't find your words objectionable. I have always felt this is a spiritual battle. My H is Christian and always placed those values above all else. I do believe this is an attack on our marriage and it must be fought spiritually.

[trusting]

This is how I have felt too and why I feel it is so important to cover my H in prayer.  I can see the battle very clearly.  My H's Christian beliefs and values were also very important to him prior to MLC.

[Still]

Very strange dream last night:

My H and I were out to dinner with a group of friends. I looked over at him and noticed he was wearing his wedding band (something he took off more than a year ago), but on his right hand. I reached over and put my hand on his. He said, "I have to wear it on my right hand because I lost too much weight in my left." Then, he put his arm around me and gave me the warmest hug.

We ate dinner and then went for a monster truck ride. I have never even seen a monster truck up close. There was a large group of us in the truck and the driver (a giggling teen) was taking it too fast. The truck flipped over and over. I remember hearing the scraping metal on concrete and just praying that my children were okay. My body was hitting something over and over, but I could only see, not feel anything. Then, the vehicle came to a rest on its roof. The radio immediately began reporting the names of all those that perished in the crash. I had this sense of relief as I didn't personally know any of the people. Then, they said that there was one more fatality. They then said my h's name. I looked up to the sky and there were all these stealth bombers flying. One landed on the crash site and I woke up.  Very weird!

[Trustandlove]

I went and dug up this thread; I had yet another dream with H in it the other night and was thinking about dreams in general.

My SIL (brother's wife) had a reasonable interpretation of dreams -- she said that it's how you yourself see things, how your own thoughts work.  That makes sense when you think about people who find things they have lost after a dream; it's those thoughts that were in there coming out. 

All the dreams that I've had about my H have been ones of eventual reconciliation.  I didn't describe them in detail to SIL, but said that I had one that seemed to be him saying "I'll get there, but in my own way"; she said that it was because that was what I had decided (for lack of a better word right now) was the case. 

She is a doctor, and also has some religious faith, although isn't the kind that prays daily.  Her view is that dreams don't come from outside, they aren't a sign from anywhere, they are how we see things.  She didn't quite say wishful thinking, but it was definitely our own goals rather than someone elses. 

It makes sense if it means that they can help us clarify our own thoughts, i.e. in my case it would be that I am not ready to stop standing.  I still see reconciliation as the goal.   That doesn't mean that it will happen that way, but it does mean that it is still what I want. 

I've been writing down those dreams  in a notebook, as you know dreams slip away quickly.  I then do forget them; it is interesting to go back and read what was there. 

The dream I had the other night was the longest one with H in it that I'd had, and was yet again one of reconciliation -- reading it over I can see where it followed on from our conversation on Saturday. 

When we truly move on as if they're not coming back, do these stop?