[barbiedoll]

I am a "lone wolf " looking to see where I belong . ( Mars perhaps ?)
I do not "fit" this life anymore
I feel no purpose, no emotions.  ( must be contagious ... as I feel nothing anymore either )
I am nothing but a paycheck to you ( yes, popping bon bons on the sofa is all I do )
I am suffocating here with you
 
I could go on... I have 3 pages of crazy ( front and back ) .

[maomina]

SOme of the strange things apart from ILYBINIL and we grew apart .....etc etc

ex accusing me of wanting to move on and leave him behind (he left the country and has a baby with ow)
Ex how about i send you stuff (from Holland) and you sell it (in Malta) i.e a buisness proposal!!
ex about s7 " s is 4years old  ermmm no s is ...s is ?" did not even know how old his son is 
ex accusing me of being a bad mum for playing music in my car
ex " I feel as if I m in rough waters a child in one country and 2 more in another "
ex " Everyone is jealous of me "

ohhhh gosh there are so many wierd things he said that i m losing count 

[nah]

About 3 years ago, "well, you got to enjoy the fruits of my labor"

Background:  When we married I was 19, he was 21.  We rented a slum house and we slept on a mattress for 5 years until we bought our first house.  We BOTH worked 60-80 hours a week, we BOTH sacrificed for many years.  He use to boast to others that we were the perfect couple b/c he never met anyone that could go toe-to-toe with him on work ethic.  btw-  my mother is 80 and STILL works.  It's in my blood.

I was so shocked that he would say this to me, I couldn't respond.

A few weeks ago when we were arguing on the phone I brought it up.  "How dare you say that I was so lucky to enjoy the fruits of YOUR labor?  I slept on that mattress beside you, I ate nothing but potatoes for months, I worked at least as hard as you, year after year after year."

He went quiet then said....

"I would never say something like that."

What???  I have been sitting and stewing about his remark, for years.  Fuming that he could actually re-write history so out of whack that I believed he felt I was riding his coattails when in actuality everything WE had was due to BOTH of us.

All worked up and he didn't even remember the remark. 

He went further and thanked me for all I had done for so many years.

 

So I went from being awesome, to a lazy gold-digger (even though he had less than nothing), to being a hard-working, great mom (just received this message the first time since he left) but still not someone he would want to be married to.....

Nobody can convince me that their brains are not fried. 

[heroIam]

I really only have one weird statement from H, about 1.5 years in referring to a bill:

"You know I don't like surprises, right?" 

Uh, yea, neither do I.......

[nah]

Haha.... yes, they don't like it when something is done to them that they have been doing to others.

The day the Leaver was fired from his job (30 yr career, he was a leader in his industry and did very well financially until MLC hit), he sent me a message, which was very unusual at the time.

After he told me he was "let go", we went back and forth a bit, then I wrote, "are you ok?"

He responded, "what hurts the most is after all the years I put in, right when things got a little tough, they just show me the door".

Yep.  Guess, he didn't notice for a second that Karma just shoved a big one right up his @ss.

I responded, "ummm.... did you forget who you are talking to??"

He glossed over that quick and responded about how financials will soon be an issue.

[Nas]

After he told me he was "let go", we went back and forth a bit, then I wrote, "are you ok?"

He responded, "what hurts the most is after all the years I put in, right when things got a little tough, they just show me the door".

    Their spectacular lack of self-awareness never ceases to amaze me. 

[nah]

After he told me he was "let go", we went back and forth a bit, then I wrote, "are you ok?"

He responded, "what hurts the most is after all the years I put in, right when things got a little tough, they just show me the door".

    Their spectacular lack of self-awareness never ceases to amaze me.

Nas--- I almost fell off my chair when I read those words.

The first thing I thought was he must be making a sick joke.  Nope, he's just stupid. 

[maomina]

I find that they only think of them and their needs !! I also feel that mine did everything in his power to push me away from him ....well he got that I hope he s happy now that he managed to complete destroy me and forget we even exist .....I spent years living the life of a junkie (I never used he did) making sacrifices and praying he d one day finally realize what he had instead I got "hey it was no life" ....yes it wasn t for me and the kids you punk !!!.....sorry but feeling pissed!

[sparklestar]

Well I had some fairly standard script stuff then some a bit weirder

I will always love you I just don't want this anymore
I don't feel anything, don't feel anything for my mum and dad or anyone
I drive around feeling nothing, I act through my day
I want to travel, go snowboarding, I haven't done anything with my life
I feel trapped
I don't feel like I should, I look at Facebook memories and can't feel the same as I did then
I know I don't feel like I should, I don't feel like a man should about his wife
I wasn't prepared to live a lie, I have to be true to myself
I don't want to be in a relationship, I know exactly what I want from my next relationship but that isn't going to be for a very long time (went straight into a relationship)
Maybe I'm not good in relationships
I'm not interested in girls if anything they get on my t*ts (a U.K. Expression)
I can do what I want we're not going out (when I found out about ow)
We both have the chance for another life. it's the end of chapter and I can look back on it and feel good with no resentment - I was starting to feel resentment

And then after a while I just got a lot of 'I made the right decision' as answers to my question if 'are you happy now'

All pretty standard but he has acted in bonkers ways, hanging out with younger people, used younger language, change of style (yoUnger), filmed himself rapping in his car, drank more, took cocaine. Very standard replay type stuff I guess.

[OntheEdge]

Right before BD (9-6-14) when things were quite bad, exH was staying out all night, OW,  secrets, lies, etc...I asked him  "What are you doing?"  he responded, "Im just living"
 
I was flabbergasted to say the least... just living... wow.

Nearly 3 years later, Im divorced and  in a great new relationship and very happy.  But sometimes im still haunted by the dead eyes and passive response from my ex...just living

ironically enough, he's jobless and "just living" with his parents after having to go inpatient detox for alcoholism....oh Karma, lol