[xyzcf]

Today was my Beloved husband’s funeral. I was going to carefully write about "us" but have decided to just let it out as it flows on the page.

I was a stander, for 16 1/2 years.  We were married for 32 years before BD in 2009. My beliefs about the sacrament and permanency of marriage come from my earliest childhood teachings. Vows we made before God, could never ever be broken.

I am also convinced that MLC is a real thing and that the man I knew and loved changed completely 16 1/2 years ago.

I have often encouraged people not to write their spouse out of their lives completely. He would spend time with us, as a family..I did everything I could to preserve our family.

He became ill 6 months ago, came home and I took care of him….we resolved so much and indeed, a few weeks ago he asked me if I would ever consider marrying him again..I smiled…explained gently that according to the Catholic Church, we always have been married…for we did not have our marriage annulled and the Church does not recognize a civil divorce, and neither of us remarried others.

And, in my heart, the bond that we share had never been broken.

There is much much more, but I have always been very private and protective of our love. And although our stories here are all different, there are also so many similarities.

Hero’s spouse, and the friends I made here helped me so much for many years, to be able to talk to others who were experiencing the same thing, heard the same words, this  had somehow allowed me to heal.

I thank RCR, Heartsblessings, Stayed, Dontgivup, Trusting, Limitless, Old Pilot, Voyager, Theheartknows , hearttoheart, Calamity, Baxster1, readytofixmyself and so many many others for all the time they took to help me along the way.

I am and have been well, healed, content, living a very good life. I will grieve deeply for this man I have always loved….and be grateful for all the good years that we had together and the realization that no matter how far away he strayed, I was always close to his heart as he was to mine. Rest in peace, forever loved, xyzcf

[Baxter1]

XY,

Im so sorry for your loss. There is never a good time to lose a loved one but at this time of year it must be especially hard for you and the family.
Thank you for help in my stand, you’ve definitely helped me get this far.

[zartheit]

Oh no... I'm sorry. I'm absolutely stunned to hear. I can only imagine what you must be feeling. I'll be thinking of you in the coming days. Sorry for your loss.

[JohnnyBravo]

I'm so sorry to hear that... You have been a huge help to so many of us. <hugs>

[Nas]

I’m truly sorry for this loss for you, your daughter and family.

[LC]

I an so sorry for your loss.  It seems that although you and your Beloved seemed far apart, he was always near, even when it might not have felt like it at the time.  Your Stand was a good one and it had a good resolution, IMHO. 

[Trustandlove]

Hi, xy,

I'm very sorry for your loss, your unshakeable conviction has always been inspirational.

T&L

[Biscuit]

XY,

I’m so sorry to hear this news. I’m glad you 2 got to spend his last days together.

Much love B x

[marvin4242]

I also am sorry to hear about your loss, and your husband was very lucky to have someone like you who gave him the grace despite his actions, specially in his final days. That is indeed a very special and rare gift. I also hope despite the difficult situation you got a chance to find something in these last days to offer more peace and calm about what happened.

I hope you try to focus on yourself a bit now as it is very likely things will come up after the funeral.

[Treasur]

Like others, I am so very sorry for your and your daughter’s loss. You are both in all of our thoughts and prayers.