[Dragonfly33]

Thank you Nas and Ursa.
I agree with you both. It could be that those dreams were a result of the things I told myself but deep inside I am still not fully out of those emotions. I always tell myself I don't care about my xh anymore and I don't feel anything for him anymore, partly because I want to move on and so I convinced myself he doesn't matter anymore. Those repressed feelings emotions come out in a dream. Or as Ursa said, it could be some residual emotions that I haven't totally gotten rid of. But what I am sure of is that my mind and body are still not over processing all the things that MLC brought in my life. Once in a while I imagine this conversation with  like some sort of a closure where I can pour everything to him. But I don't wait for the dialogue to come, and I am more than convinced that it may never come. It could be part of my healing process to say in my mind what I've been wanting to tell him. It is quite a long journey.

[Reinventing]

I wonder if, to some extent, this is not fully resolved even with many years. It does get much much better, but the injustice of it all that the LBS feels may not completely be closed. Even wirh understanding the MLC forces, moving forward, healing, happiness in life moving forward, I think a little piece remains unresolved and I wonder if that remains for many folks.

Just like remembering things from life that were not like we think they should have been that we remember. We mostly don't want to address those, but we don't forget them and they come to mind from time to time. And this was a big one, so likely to take much longer to get to a low or very low level of needing resolving (e.g. detachment and acceptance).