Baxter,
Thank you for your kind words.

Yes, my glass is completely full. Even if it sometimes seems like it’s only half full of water, it’s completely full. After all, air is Matter, too. 😊   

It’s been a good life and it will continue to be so.

I’m truly sorry for this loss for you, your daughter and family.

Oh no... I'm sorry. I'm absolutely stunned to hear. I can only imagine what you must be feeling. I'll be thinking of you in the coming days. Sorry for your loss.

Today was my Beloved husband’s funeral. I was going to carefully write about "us" but have decided to just let it out as it flows on the page.

I was a stander, for 16 1/2 years.  We were married for 32 years before BD in 2009. My beliefs about the sacrament and permanency of marriage come from my earliest childhood teachings. Vows we made before God, could never ever be broken.

I am also convinced that MLC is a real thing and that the man I knew and loved changed completely 16 1/2 years ago.

I have often encouraged people not to write their spouse out of their lives completely. He would spend time with us, as a family..I did everything I could to preserve our family.

He became ill 6 months ago, came home and I took care of him….we resolved so much and indeed, a few weeks ago he asked me if I would ever consider marrying him again..I smiled…explained gently that according to the Catholic Church, we always have been married…for we did not have our marriage annulled and the Church does not recognize a civil divorce, and neither of us remarried others.

And, in my heart, the bond that we share had never been broken.

There is much much more, but I have always been very private and protective of our love. And although our stories here are all different, there are also so many similarities.

Hero’s spouse, and the friends I made here helped me so much for many years, to be able to talk to others who were experiencing the same thing, heard the same words, this  had somehow allowed me to heal.

I thank RCR, Heartsblessings, Stayed, Dontgivup, Trusting, Limitless, Old Pilot, Voyager, Theheartknows , hearttoheart, Calamity, Baxster1, readytofixmyself and so many many others for all the time they took to help me along the way.

I am and have been well, healed, content, living a very good life. I will grieve deeply for this man I have always loved….and be grateful for all the good years that we had together and the realization that no matter how far away he strayed, I was always close to his heart as he was to mine. Rest in peace, forever loved, xyzcf

Greetings!

As the end of another year approaches, here is a brief update on our marriage and family, just in case anyone is still reading or following along.

There have been a lot of stressful events in the extended family - deaths, major operations and serious illnesses with a poor prognosis.  In hindsight, the true colour of our relationship was revealed in these difficult circumstances.  I’m grateful to be able to share that we put each other at the top of our priority list and endeavoured to give the best support we could muster.

On the family front:

We very often enjoy time together to celebrate milestones and any number of manufactured ‘reasons.’ H and I are thankful that our kids don’t seem to mind hanging with the ‘old’ folks. 
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I wish you all a merry Christmas and a happy new year that is filled with peace, love and gratitude. 

((((HUGS))))