[MomOfSteel]

Thanks for helping me feel less alone and crazy.  It’s amazing how after 5 years they are still rewriting history this time with regards to things that happened during the divorce.  It’s my attorney’s fault that he didn’t get what he didn’t ask for back then but wants now.    he insists he did ask for it but none of the written communication shows that and I don’t remember the instance he keeps referring to (because I’m pretty sure it’s just rewriting of history still to vilify me and make everything my fault). Oof!  I made the choice to stick up for myself and tell him I didn’t remember it that way and none of his written communications or offers back then support what he is saying.  All I succeeded in doing was poking a bear.  I know I should be smarter than that but I’m sick of letting him spew unchallenged.  I don’t exactly have the fight in me that’s coming but like in all of this, we don’t have much choice in what the MLCer dumps on our doorstep to deal with.  I’m so tired of this hamster wheel though.  I don’t wish that the time with my kids would go faster but I will be relieved when I no longer have to coparent with their father.  Early on I wanted him to come back and wanted to reconcile.  At this point, I don’t think I ever could after he has shown me such a horrible side to himself that I could never trust again.